Saturday, March 02, 2013
Today has been a strange day with so many interruptions that the only consistency in my world has been the thoughts in my own head. I have had a lot of time to think as I accomplished many good things.
First of all, it has been really hard for me to deal with the effects of having pneumonia this past week. Obviously, this is a condition that earned the scary reputation that it has for a reason and I have to come to grips with the fact that it will take time for me to get over this. However, I have gotten over any number of bugs and conditions and germs, and I will get over this as well. It makes me feel far more tired than anything--but that helps me to get a different quality of sleep than I usually have. Maybe that has a positive spin for my own well-being.
Secondly, I am not moving fast between recuperation from the hip and pneumonia and whatever injury is in my shoulder. I do have an appointment with my ortho on Friday and I expect to get to the bottom of it. The ultrasounds bring out some tenderness in it, but it is hopefully the way to get myself better in the long run. I am on the right track with this.
Work had some tricky moments today, but it had a few stellar ones as well. One of them involved a pretty needy little guy who left me with one of the few smiles he has had all week. I am good at what I do and no matter what else is going on around me, I must never lose sight of that. Even the little boy who seemed to resent the fact that I make them figure out how to solve tricky words over telling them answers, seemed pretty happy when he figured out the tricky word "shopping." (He had warned me that his mama said that I "had to tell him words" many times but he found out that that didn't make me tell him!)
I also managed my children tonight in only the way that I manage them after spending the first time really grocery shopping for the first time in over a week and a half. I still didn't have much fun, but we have a nice supply of fruits, veggies, lean meats and whole grains again. I feel relieved.
I am back in charge of what I am thinking and doing, even if I am still sick. I can take care of business and do it well.