Calling it out the way it is
Saturday, March 02, 2013
I can think of a hundred thousand reasons why not to workout, I can think of a few thousand more as why not to eat right. I have made plans and set out routines for my workout. I made them interactive so that data updates every time you enter new information, numbers change color depending on values. I created pie charts, schedules, meal plans set with links to recipes and do you know what I forgot to include?
The sad thing is, I didn't even realize that I was doing it. I am still in my "planning" phase of weight loss. I am thinking about, craving for it, but completely unwilling to work for it.
I was just reconnected to the internet yesterday and I logged on to SparkPeople. I did my little wheel spin and went to the points page. One of the ways to earn your SparkPoints to to participate in "Take the SparkPeople Poll", so I clicked on it and checked out the polls in the motivational section, since I know that I have a 'little problem' with motivating myself. The poll that I took had a few questions asking me about things like my eating and preferences about eating such as location, home cooked vs. takeout. I answered them all truthfully and submitted my 'quiz'.
Now to say that I thought that I had a 'little problem' is a bit of an understatement. I believe that if I just think something, that it will come true. I swear, it's like Robin Williams in Hook when he finally believed in the food at the table in Never Land. If I believe and 'plan' hard enough this weight is going to just melt right off of me.
NOPE AINT GONNA HAPPEN!
Quiz results told me that I am not ready to 'fully commit' to losing weight. Now sitting back looking back at all of my 'actions' to lose this weight, seem pretty damn retarded now. I spent literally hours putting together worksheets to 'track my progress' and I never even bothered to do anything that I could 'track' on any of those 'cool, up-to-date' sheets.
I would write in this blog that I am going to "do it this time" or "this time I will get it". Cause lets be honest, I am going to fall off this horse more times than I care to think about. But, what I will write to you all, is that I am going to work at getting better. Instead of making all of these huge changes at one time, I am going to change one/two things a week, to better my health.
I know that one day this will all stick to me. But I will stick this one out, cause there is a miracle at the end!!