As soon as I listed my food intake from breakfast and lunch, I knew I was in trouble. I only had a few hundred calories left for dinner and the rest of the day. It was the peanut butter with my apple that put me 200 calories over for lunch.

Then down went the brain. I drank tea, I drank water but I kept thinking about food. Then came dinner and I ate a very reasonable portion and things were going good. Then I started thinking about my husbands cookies that I repackaged for him into a smaller container and I wanted something sweet. So, I had a spoon of peanut butter dipped in chocolate chips. It satisfied my craving for something sweet. It put me over for the calories.

There is a real mental battle going on. It has been a struggle all day. I just want to give up and eat but I know I will feel so guilty afterwards.

The best thing is this blogging. I like writing it down daily. I am in week 1 of the sugar craving challenge and I am really focusing on how I feel when wanting sweets. It is opening my eyes. I look forward to the following weeks where I can learn to make good choices instead of giving in to my desire.

Time for a hot bath and bed.