The excuses stop here
Friday, March 01, 2013
For a few weeks, my body craved milk and toast like oxygen.
Then, I started having morning sickness that was never really sickness, just a feeling like I was hungover.
So for the first several weeks of my pregnancy, I just ate what tasted good at the time and didn't worry about it, whether it was fried eggs or peas or yogurt or white rice or cookies.
Now the morning sickness is basically gone, I can stomach just about anything again.... and I'm still eating like I've never heard the words "Paleo" or "insulin" before.
It's time for this insanity to stop. NOW. I have eaten dessert every single day for the past 2 or 3 weeks. I have eaten grains every single day for nearly a month. I have eaten every single food group banned by the Primal blueprint in the past week: grains, dairy, beans (black and garbanzo), sugar, artificial sweeteners, and freakish frankenfoods (Kraft mac, anyone?). I KNOW that it's my diet, NOT Dough Ball, that is causing much of my pregnancy symptoms. My inconsistent energy levels, the heart burn, the bloating/constipation, the cravings for sweets... they're ALL exaggerated by my crappy, modern, grain-based diet, if not 100% caused by it.
Oh sure, there are a lot of weird things happening because of the pregnancy. I was so dizzy last Sunday that I couldn't hold my head up until I'd eaten half my breakfast because your blood pressure drops dramatically in weeks 9-10; I suffer a terrible blood sugar crash before I feel any hunger because I simultaneously burn calories faster while digesting food slower; I have never experienced thirst like this in my life (and I've hiked 10 miles in 80-degree heat). But those are pretty minor, sporadic issues compared to the continual discomfort of bloating and pants that no longer fit right.
Let me be clear here: MY PANTS WERE TOO BIG 3 WEEKS AGO -- IT IS WAY TOO SOON FOR THEM TO BE TOO TIGHT. 10 weeks is NOT when you start showing.
So starting March 10th, it's time for another Whole 30. I want to wait until I'm in my third month of pregnancy because my energy levels will have gone up, and by then I'll have had my next midwife appointment so I can get her approval. I have no doubt that she'll give enthusiastic consent for this challenge. It will give me and my DB the nutrient-dense, gut-friendly, energy-sustaining, body-building nourishment we need.
It will probably be harder this time than it was the first time -- my dad is coming to visit for 5 days during that time, and finding restaurants where we will both be satisfied will be a challenge. I will have to eat more than last time because I need to gain weight, but because of my growing uterus that will mean eating more often instead of bigger meals, and that is not how I usually roll. And of course, like I said, the cravings are far worse going in than they ever were back in October, and that might mean a longer "kill all the things!" mode.
But I WILL do it, for one simple reason:
I love my baby, and I love my body.
End of story.
End of excuses.