Friday, March 01, 2013
So I ended the month on a bad note: I gained back the weight I lost during my leek cleanse. So this is definitely not something I will do again. I know the reason I gained the weight back was my excessive, emotional eating this past week but I feel like I am slowly gaining back control of my hunger. I already lost one of the 6 pound which I first lost and then gained back last week and the pants that fit me after the "leek cleanse" still fit me, so it's not all bad.
Yesterday I ventured out, trying to buy pants that fit me. I checked out both Marshall's and Nordstrom Rack. I still have a voucher for Nordstrom Rack which I was eager to use. I spent about two hours at these two places, trying on about 15 pairs of pants. I really don't want "skinny" jeans. They just don't suit my pear shape, I wanted high-rise straight leg jeans. NYDJ makes a style called "Marilyn" - that's what I was looking for.
I ended up only finding one pair of non-skinny jeans NYDJ at Nordstrom Rack and they are a size 16 regular jeans. And you know what - they fit me! Barely and not comfortably but enough for me to buy them. I don't remember the last time I wore a pair of size 16 regular jeans! Definitely not since my teenage years.
At Marshall's I found a pair of size 18W NYDJ and they fit me like a glove. I was wearing them today and yesterday and people are all like "OMG, you look like you lost so much weight!" - good jeans, you guys. They make a big difference!
I also got a pair of size 20 Bandolino pants in purple. Purple pants, people! But they look amazing. I've been wanting purple/dark red pants for while but they were all either skinny jeans or too shiny or just didn't look good. These look good. I hope they won't stretch out though. Right now they are very comfortable but I know that sometimes when jeans are comfortable when you first put them on, they later stretch out like crazy.
So who knows what size I am right now? A year ago I was a size 28, so to buy a pair of size 16 Regular jeans is amazing, even though it's a brand that runs large. I know a number shouldn't mean that much but I can't help but feel that it does.
In general though, I am just happy that I am starting to find a balance in my eating again. My friend had me over for pizza and wine last night and I managed without too much difficulty to stick to two small pieces of pizza and a glass and a half of red wine.
I just have to keep reminding myself that as wonderful as those quick results from cleanses and fasts are, they are not the way to go for me. They make me moody and make me fail in the long run. Slow and steady is the way to go.