Friday, March 01, 2013
I haven't been on here quite a while. Not that I lost motivation but I went back to school and got busy. And I lost a little motivation.
The hard part was when my dad stopped being interested. We worked out together, we were fixing out relationship, we were FINALLY getting along, and then he stopped calling, stopped texting, stopped everything...
I gained almost everything back, including the inches :(
Then in January I tried a month of Herbal Magic, thinking it would be a jump start. And it was! It was helpful, albeit unhealthy, but answered some questions and got me motivated again. The absolute best part was the weight ins. So when my time was up there, I went to Weight Watchers. I realized that I need to be accountable to someone. I need someone to be routing for me IN PERSON and helping me IN PERSON. I can do a lot of things on my own but this just isn't one of them. And that's okay.
So I've been slowly losing pounds. Gradually losing those inches I lost in the summer. And gaining my confidence back. Soon I will be back to wearing my smaller bra and my tighter clothes, but for now I am feeling good with what I'm doing.
This has always been a cycle for me and I can't guarantee myself that I won't fall of the wagon again. But this time I'm not making excuses. I'm not depriving myself. I'm not getting angry with myself. And I'm not relying on someone else to do it for me.
Thank you everyone for your support those few months ago... re-reading those comments have been a great boost as well.
Good luck to you all! And good luck to me ;) Here's hoping I can finally take my "after" photo!