Friday, March 01, 2013
I finally feel renewed and settled. I have committed to me and to a program.
I think a big part of my constant confusion was all the fitness programs out there and loving them all and seeing good results with them WHEN I actually did them, but never completing committing to one.
I was like a bee drunk on pollen flying crazily from one flower to another.
With all the back and forth and back peddling I just decided to say, I would do whatever I want that day. THEN I would decide to not do anything that day.
So the cycle continued.
I finally did some tough love and said that is it: MAKE A COMMITMENT.
I remember when I was first getting back into fitness. I would wake up at 5 am and do Tracy Anderson Beginner Cardio and DANG it did I struggle...but something about her just kept me going.
I wanted to look like she looked.
I feel so relieved and elated now that I have committed. Granted it is only TEN days first but I keep thinking, what if, maybe I can do 90.
If I did the 90 day program I would have actually completed something. Something I have never done before. It would end perfectly at the end of May. RIGHT before bikini season. RIGHT before summer clothes.
This idea has been feverishly growing in my mind. I am finally in my own house. Controlling my own eating. Grasping my own timeline. Adjusted and ready for more!!
I can do this. Ever since I decided to make this ten day commitment to myself I have been BEAMING with utter pride and determination.
I am on a commitment high.