Friday, March 01, 2013
My husband and I recently came into some money. So, we took that money and paid off all our unnecessary debt. It felt so good to pay off all these debts, but at the same time, it felt liberating to be free from all the stress that comes from owing money and only being able to make minimum monthly payments. So, this got me to thinking of other ways that I have found freedom.
First, I found freedom from the bonds of being trapped in my 508 lb body. Since losing over 200 lbs, I have the freedom to come and go as I please without the fears of being ashamed to go anywhere as well as the fear of too much walking and getting winded. I also have the freedom to go out and join the workforce and work in the schools again. I also have the freedom to drive myself where ever I want to go without having to depend on others. It feels so good to have that freedom.
Second, I found financial freedom from not being trapped under a mound of debt and getting nowhere in paying it off and sometimes having to skip a month because my son's tuition was due, or one of my daughters needed something. It feels wonderful and I recognize this as a blessing because not many people have that.
Third, I found emotional freedom. When I was 200+ lbs heavier, I was in emotional hell. I was depressed all the time. I felt that I had no worth or value at all. I never wanted to leave my house because I was embarrassed at how I looked. I was ashamed at the thought of embarrassing my loved ones, even though I knew that they loved me and wouldn't be ashamed of me. I have found freedom in my mind. I now realize that I am a person of value, I am a person who is loved. I am a person who deserves to be happy.
Fourth, I found freedom in my health. I know this sounds weird, but I have. When I was 200+ lbs heavier, I had extremely some health issues that could have claimed my life. I had extremely high blood pressure. I had to take three pills a day for just that. I had severe sleep apnea. I needed a CPAP machine to sleep. I had extremely heavy menstrual cycles. Losing this weight, has enabled me to not be on any blood pressure meds now and I no longer sleep with a CPAP machine. My cycles have even gone back to normal.
With these freedoms, I have found that I am a more confident person. I feel happier. I've even had people tell me that I sound and look so much happier than I did a mere 11 months ago.
So, my advice to you dear friends, is to do what you have to do to free yourselves of whatever it is that is binding you, whether it be weight, money, people, etc. You will find yourselves so much happier and after all, we only live once. We might as well make our lives as happy as they can be.
Happy March to you all!