Friday, March 01, 2013
Sometimes it seems someone flipped a switch and I am productive, pushing, working hard to get things done.
But most of the time, I don't want to do anything. I'm happy as a clam doing nothing, letting the everyday things which should be done pile up. Sometimes I can overcome the "I don't want to"s. Like last night I didn't want to get ready and go to the classes at the gym.
But the other side of me didn't want to miss the last night the pool would be open, so I forced myself to get it together and only missed 5 minutes of class.
The "Get it done, NOW" voice doesn't come around very often, thank goodness. So I don't get too frustrated because I have a feeling I wouldn't get much accomplished if it didn't put its foot down once in a while.
Like right now, I need to get the newsletter typed, uploaded to the web site, the notice e-mail sent, then to the printer and post office with those that don't have modern tech recipients. I DON'T WANT TO. But that pushy side is going to take over and make me get this job done.
I cut myself some slack on these kind of days by "clearing my calendar," by putting nothing else on my to do list.
Sometimes I get involved in a big project which I WANT to do. Thankfully I have learned some skills which help me keep other areas of my life going so I have time to work on THE PROJECT. I know how to be super organized. I know the habits I need to be sure are still in place if I am going to
1. read a novel without stopping
2. paint a few pictures
3. become more fit
4. plan meals and shopping list for the trip to the farmer's market tomorrow
5. take a class that runs all day, every day for a week
You get the picture. And PUSHY ME really gets riled up or excited when I start more than one project at a time because that means that different areas of the house will be in the middle of a different project, all at the same time. PushMePullYou is probably having a fit right now because I AM in the middle of the newsletter, trying on and packing up the clothes that are way too big (on the 5th large garbage bag today), starting seeds, getting income tax filed.) But just for today, she will have to disappear because I am ONLY going to get the newsletter finished after my walk.
How do you handle letting yourself say no when you KNOW you've reached the saturation point?