Friday, March 01, 2013
I have figured out two things in the ups and downs of dieting. Without determination you fail to have the sheer willpower to avoid the endless onslaught of bad choices. Without willpower to say no, you are on a runaway train with no way off until, ultimately you give up. The second thing is triggers. Everyone has them. Identifying them is the next step in to creating a healthy lifestyle.
I have three personal triggers. First is that i'm narcoleptic so when I am tired, I eat. The pitfall here is that i'm too tired to heat something up, so it is whatever is easy to eat and quick. More often than not it is a carb loaded food or it's sugar. So eliminating most junk from the cupboards is essential.
My second is that I'm addicted to diet coke. I am just like a smoker trying to quit his cigarettes. On again off again. I just keep trying. I'll do great for weeks and no longer feel the physical withdrawal symptoms and then suddenly we go out to dinner and there it is. One sip and i'm back on the roller coaster ride. I've developed a recent enjoyment of Vanilla Chai tea so hopefully I can substitute the addiction.
My third trigger is my husband. He likes to snack at night while we watch tv. I don't NEED to but when he starts in on his snack, it's like it is a silent permission to have something and then suddenly it's all that I can think about till I give in.
After my last disaster of losing my motivation and determination I put on 40 more pounds. I've lost only two so far but it's only been a couple days. I began tracking exactly what I eat yesterday. So this morning here in the wee hours of the night, I set up my meals for today. It is a little tough to find the right balance. I find i'm either too high in fat or too high in carbs all while too low in calories overall. Being so large I don't know how low to cut my calories down and still be healthy so it's trial by error. I've come to several conclusions, first of which is the need to eliminate most processed food. I've left whole wheat breads and veggie pasta but that's about it. I have PCOS and unnatural foods are bad.
I need to adjust to the new eating patterns and then I plan to start working on my exercise goals. I bought a fitbit and LOVE it! It really shows just how sedentary I can get during the day. This weekend i'll do a before picture and take measurements to track progress. When I finally get to 300, I know i'm on the right track.