Well first off I luckily at the last minute last night remembered that I had an "orientation" meeting practically downtown Omaha first thing this morning for unemployment. So an hour drive (from Fremont) during rush hour to get there...
....then it lasted until noon, so it blew half my day. By the time I got home it was just after 1pm, and had some errands to run before picking up the other kids from school.
Tried to turn in my son's license plates for his car and use them to renew mine (my car is coming from another county so needs new plates) but since my car isn't due till tomorrow they couldn't do it a day early....uuugh. So back we go again tomorrow. *sigh Luckily we had them estimate how much it'll cost me for my car and thankfully it's about half what I feared it was gonna be so YAY....lol
Also finally getting around to applying with the state for assistance for stuff since both of us are laid off. Talk about getting laid low in the pride category. You have to list all your assets, expenses, basically spell your life out to these people to see if you'll be deem worthy enough (broke enough) to need support. Feels very demeaning, but our savings is gone so we need the help.
The kicker to my day however was both hubby and I got notified within an hour of each other, that neither one of us got either of the jobs we'd applied for. Talk about getting kicked when you're down. Today has felt like one failure after another.
Hence, (yes I actually used that word in a sentence) my eating has not been spectacular today, but neither has it been total disaster. For example, I bought a Special Dark XL bar today...and have so far only eaten half of it...LOL Have still been drinking water, but not enough. And for some reason my neck is very sore and hubby's had a migraine (probably stress related) for a good chunk of the day so we didn't do Day 2 of the workout series. Hopefully we can get to that tomorrow.
On the plus side....(find a silver lining....find a silver lining...) we found stability balls
at the local hardware store on clearance for $5 each and even the right size so picked up one for each of us. Now we can do the exercises without modifying them. Even found a small set of weights at wallyworld yesterday...3lb, 5lb, 8lb set so we have something to start with anyways.
I'm drained tonight, emotionally, mentally. I know hiding from my problems won't do me any good, but facing them...especially the financial ones...is just so depressing right now, it's hard to see the light at the end of this very dark tunnel. It's been hard to find my joy lately. I know the Lord will and is taking care of us, but I can't see the future to know how it's gonna turn out and I'm very nervous about it all. Laying those burdens down and not picking them back up again is SO hard for me.
Ok enough...I'm not one of those people that likes to wallow....at least not for too long. Just press on and keep going and something's bound to happen...hopefully for the better.
Good night Sparkland! God Bless you.