Thursday, February 28, 2013
I had written a long blog a couple of days ago, and the computer just took it away. Am trying again now.
Am doing pretty well. Things are calming down some for me emotionally, and I am not eating compulsively as I had been.
Eating better food, and have lost a couple of pounds. Exercising almost every day doing something. Knees still hurting quite a bit, so I may have to go to the Dr and see about having something done. Hoping to be able to strengthen the muscles around the knees so they are better supported anyway. We will see.
My psychologist had me buy a workbook for behavior modification. It is a very good book, but I am afraid it is going to be kind of slow going.
I did some reading in the first chapter and while I was working on finding other things I would be willing to do besides eating as coping mechanisms, I became very emotionally overwhelmed. The irony is that the purpose of the book it to help me deal with being emotionally overwhelmed.
I did chose some things that I am willing to do to help myself with having so much anxiety, and am doing some of them. But I realized that I have a lot of anxiety.
Seems to be a bit better right now, so hoping that the work I am doing is helping. One day at a time, but it is a challenge.
I can do it though. Unfortunately I can't do it fast.