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End of February: An Update

Thursday, February 28, 2013

So, wow. It's already the end of February. I've actually stuck with this for 2 months, even when it's been hard. This is definitely the longest I can remember staying on track with weight loss, so I'm pretty excited about that.

This week in and of itself has been full of some definite ups and downs. For the first time since I started this in January, I really struggled emotionally this week. I've been really diligent about tracking (and weighing and measuring) my food, and I wear a Body Media armband to tell me how many calories I'm burning. Even so, I've only lost about half the amount of weight I should have based on my calorie deficits. For some reason, this week I just got really down about that. I lost sight of the fact that I actually have lost weight... I lost sight of the fact that I've consistently tracked food and exercise for two freaking months... I lost sight of the fact that I'm doing really well, and regardless of the number on the scale, I'm making super healthy changes in my life that WILL eventually get me where I want to go.

During the stress and frustration, I noticed that I was craving sweets and salty foods. Now, if you'd asked me months ago if I was an emotional eater, I would have told you no. Believe it or not, I had actually really looked for this in myself, and somehow, I never saw it. This week I realized that emotional eating doesn't mean explicitly thinking "I feel stressed. I'm going to eat so I feel less stressed," but instead means that feelings of stress or sadness trigger cravings that I may not even consciously recognize. I really am a smart girl, so the fact that this has escaped me until now is quite strange. Even so, I think that identifying that in fact, I AM an emotional eater is certainly a positive step. Furthermore, I did give into my cravings the first night of these feelings, but I had a lean meat/peppers mix and a handful of chocolate chips. The second night, instead of giving in, I did about 10 minutes of yoga first, and then had cucumber slices and hummus because I was still hungry. I think just looking for these cravings in the future, though, will make me much better equipped on this journey.

So, basically, a week that started in a kind of down way has ended the way February began: on a very positive note. I've hit 1000 fitness minutes for both of the last 2 months. I've only exceeded my calorie goals on a handful of days. I've lost almost 15 pounds. I've quit smoking, and gone over 6 weeks now as a non-smoker. I've engaged on Spark People and love my teams and the encouragement around here, especially from the few Spark Friends I consistently check in with. I've lost at least 10 inches from around my body and 1.1% body fat. In short, I've accomplished quite a lot.

As February comes to a close, I have to say it's been a pretty fantastic year so far.

Member Comments About This Blog Post:
JACARD 3/4/2013 8:59AM

  Wow, that does sound like a fantastic start to the year!

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SHINING_ON 3/4/2013 1:02AM

    I remember all too well the disappointment of the numbers "just not adding up". When I began this (again) last May, I started experimenting with my diet and my body to try to find out what was up. For some people, the numbers just won't add up. That was really hard for me to come to grips with those few few months. It felt patently unfair. It felt like I was being cheated or robbed of my incredibly hard work. I started to wonder if I would ever reach my goals.

I wish I could say that those feelings go away, but for me they haven't completely. I've learned to deal with them better, to just remind myself that I'm fighting for every ounce, every pound, every inch I lose... and that, heck, it may be unfair, but I'm a slow loser. It just means my metabolism is that good. It also means that I have to make serious lifestyle changes to be able to reach my goals. When I think about it in those terms, I can now feel a little pride. I do work incredibly hard, I do fight every day, and I have already come a long way... even if the scale isn't registering as low as my "numbers" say it should.

Keep hammering away at the fat. It will shed, even if more slowly than your calculations say it should. Don't be afraid to experiment, maybe you'll find something that helps you to lose it faster. But even if you don't, just keep fighting because you're so worth it!

Now, take a moment to really bask in your success - because, WOW, you are amazing. You're a stunning, lovely woman, and you can do anything.

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*MAMA*2*BOYS* 3/3/2013 12:12PM

    You are doing such an AMAZING job!!! You aren't dieting, you are making lifestyle changes that will result in long term success! I know how it feels to be discouraged because you aren't losing as much weight as you "should be," but those numbers will keep adding up and before you know it, you will reach your goal! emoticon emoticon

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KRHODES05 3/1/2013 2:00PM

    This is awesome. I'm definitely an emotional/compulsive/stress eater. Whatever you want to call it lol Recognizing it as a problem allows you to take the steps needed to address it. Sounds like a wonderful month :)

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