Thursday, February 28, 2013
So, wow. It's already the end of February. I've actually stuck with this for 2 months, even when it's been hard. This is definitely the longest I can remember staying on track with weight loss, so I'm pretty excited about that.
This week in and of itself has been full of some definite ups and downs. For the first time since I started this in January, I really struggled emotionally this week. I've been really diligent about tracking (and weighing and measuring) my food, and I wear a Body Media armband to tell me how many calories I'm burning. Even so, I've only lost about half the amount of weight I should have based on my calorie deficits. For some reason, this week I just got really down about that. I lost sight of the fact that I actually have lost weight... I lost sight of the fact that I've consistently tracked food and exercise for two freaking months... I lost sight of the fact that I'm doing really well, and regardless of the number on the scale, I'm making super healthy changes in my life that WILL eventually get me where I want to go.
During the stress and frustration, I noticed that I was craving sweets and salty foods. Now, if you'd asked me months ago if I was an emotional eater, I would have told you no. Believe it or not, I had actually really looked for this in myself, and somehow, I never saw it. This week I realized that emotional eating doesn't mean explicitly thinking "I feel stressed. I'm going to eat so I feel less stressed," but instead means that feelings of stress or sadness trigger cravings that I may not even consciously recognize. I really am a smart girl, so the fact that this has escaped me until now is quite strange. Even so, I think that identifying that in fact, I AM an emotional eater is certainly a positive step. Furthermore, I did give into my cravings the first night of these feelings, but I had a lean meat/peppers mix and a handful of chocolate chips. The second night, instead of giving in, I did about 10 minutes of yoga first, and then had cucumber slices and hummus because I was still hungry. I think just looking for these cravings in the future, though, will make me much better equipped on this journey.
So, basically, a week that started in a kind of down way has ended the way February began: on a very positive note. I've hit 1000 fitness minutes for both of the last 2 months. I've only exceeded my calorie goals on a handful of days. I've lost almost 15 pounds. I've quit smoking, and gone over 6 weeks now as a non-smoker. I've engaged on Spark People and love my teams and the encouragement around here, especially from the few Spark Friends I consistently check in with. I've lost at least 10 inches from around my body and 1.1% body fat. In short, I've accomplished quite a lot.
As February comes to a close, I have to say it's been a pretty fantastic year so far.