I know many of you have been waiting for an update on how I've been doing with the SHRED Diet.
Well, I had been taking a break from SHRED because I had been so busy with planning my sister's bridal shower and various other wedding planning activities. I did partially do Week 2. I kind of hit and missed my way through it, the same as I did Week 1... but it was more miss than hit. Nevertheless, I managed to maintain the weight I had lost that first week. No loss, but no gain. No harm, no foul.
It was my intention to just resume from where I'd left off after the confetti cleared. But, when that day came, I had devised a different plan.
I decided that since I had one week left before my fitting for alterations to my dress, I would try for some quick weight loss... I decided to go back to my old staple diet: The South Beach Diet. I knew that if I followed it, I could lose about 8-10 lbs in about 14 days. So, I was motivated.
But, ONE day into it and I just came to the realization...
I CAN'T DIET ANYMORE!
I just can't do it. I just can't follow what somebody says to eat, when they say to eat it and how much they say to eat. I just can't do it anymore. It feels confining and restrictive (even when there is SO MUCH to choose from and SO MUCH to eat. Yeah, you could say I'm sort of choosing. But, I'm choosing from a prescribed menu. I'm eating at a prescribed time. I'm eating a prescribed amount. Ultimately, it still doesn't feel like ME, fully cognizant, making choices.
And, I just can't do it anymore. I'm just so OVER and BEYOND it.
I already KNOW what I'm "supposed" to eat and how much and when. I'm "supposed" to eat whatever I want in moderation. I'm "supposed" to eat when I'm hungry. I'm "supposed" to eat enough to satisfy me but not fill me. And, I'm supposed to MOVE and maintain an active lifestyle. This is what Sparkpeople has taught me. Until recently, I hadn't attempted a diet since joining Sparkpeople in 2010. I've just learned so much here that, though the journey has been slow, I never felt compelled to return to a diet of any sort.
Don't get me wrong. I'm not knocking the various diets and I'm not knocking those who choose to follow them. They work! Lord, knows they do. I may, at some point, incorporate some of the ideas and recipes from SHRED--especially the eating cleanse during the week that I didn't even get to--into my healthy eating program. But to follow a diet--any diet--in its entirety again... I just can't go there.
"The places that used to fit me, cannot hold the things I've learned, and those roads were closed off to me, while my back was turned." - Sara Groves
I just know too much about this lifestyle, at this point, to be reverting and turning back to that diet mentality... I know I still have so much to learn; but THIS is what the journey is about... Growing and understanding and learning and correcting and changing, etc. This is how I'm going to successfully lose and keep it off. I'm convinced of it. Diet books and manuals won't teach you that... experience will.
So, I'll just continue to hit and miss... and fall and get back up... and learn... and, ultimately, SUCCEED. It may be taking a little longer than the quick diet fix; but that's just because I've got a hard head. LOL I'll get there.
Until then, I'm just going to go with the flow and do what I know... one day at a time.