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Not My Fault

Thursday, February 28, 2013

Iím playing ĎChickení with my appetite and itís only ending up in physical, emotional and mental disaster.
It all started when hubs took over cooking and that boy can cook.
So, to show him my appreciation (and secretly hope he feels so valuable that heíll take over the cooking until my dying day), I make sure I eat. I do. I eat everything to the power of 3 and that equals weight gain and feeling like crap.

Does he pour it down my throat?
Does he guilt trip me that if I donít eat in excess Iím rejecting him?

After almost killing him nightly with my flatulence and poltergeist sounding stomach (my gutsí way of sharing its misery). We had to have a talk that did not include my flaming red cheeks begging for forgiveness for my bodyís assault on his nose.

ďHunny, I canít control my portions around your food. Itís going to kill us and my co-workers and anyone within a house radius.Ē

ďItís not my fault.Ē


No. No, itís not. Iíd like very much to dump a guilt trip on your shoulders and have you be responsible for my decision to be a glutton, but, at the end of the day; itís my choice. Even if I thought that being minimal with my appreciation of your food was going to seem more of an insult than an appreciation, I still need to take care of my body. I do love you and I trust that you want me healthy.

Iíll own this weight gain, and stomach rebellion and distorted relationship obligation.

Day 1 Streak of portion control.


Member Comments About This Blog Post:
PKBOO3 3/4/2013 10:30AM

    Yep...portion favorite diet weapon. Still eat what I want, just on a smaller plate!

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CRYSTLE4HIMTX12 3/3/2013 5:00PM

    emoticon Just remind yourself if it taste really good you can save some for lunch the next day. emoticon

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RUNNERRACHEL 3/2/2013 7:48PM

    Awesome that hubby is cooking. Portion control will not insult though I understand the desire to clean your plate. You can do this.

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MOSTMOM1 3/2/2013 11:31AM

    Oh the joys of having someone else cook! And the hazards that can come from that too... Well, you know what to do. I'm pretty sure Bobby isn't gonna think you don't love him if you don't eat the entire turkey or something. I'm pretty sure he's not trying to fatten you up for the kill or anything. heh heh Don't shoot the duck! We're in it to win it, darlin' and we totally, absolutely, positively GOT THIS.
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BETHSWORLD 3/2/2013 9:40AM

    You have a great Hubby! You are blessed Sweetie :)

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JENNY160 3/1/2013 6:36PM

    Hm, somehow there must be a way to divert his energy into housework, instead...

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TEXASFILLY 3/1/2013 5:39PM

    Honey, we all fall down from time to time. The thing is that we get back up~ 'n back in the saddle again (ya know there's a song with those lyrics ;)~ anyway, YOU CAN DO IT! I have every confidence in you, dear heart. Thanks so much for your sweet friendship. I'm just breathless with excitement when I read your words of encouragement. It IS amazing what the Good Lord does for His children. Aren't we blessed indeed! *hugs* BB~ emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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_JODI404 2/28/2013 11:00PM

    Best wishes with your streak! I can most definitely relate as my hubby does our cooking full time, and he is also amazing! I rarely overeat though ~ I just make sure to always thank him and give lots of compliments. What an awesome thing it is to have a man with cooking skillz!!

You'll find a good balance.

I so enjoy your sense of humor and your writing.

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    Great Blog. Glad you talked it out and wonderful luck with your streak. And by luck I mean self control. ;-)

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ASRMOM 2/28/2013 8:10PM

    You are owning it and moving forward. I sure hope you are feeling considerably better. How long do you want your streak to go? I'm looking forward to your number getting bigger (your streak number). *hugs*

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    What a writer you are! And what a wonderful wife you are to your hubby! Seriously! You make a person LISTEN in a "hungry to hear what ya gotta say" way. You should be a public speaker ... Like for people wanting to take control of their own lives. Oh, wait, you already are a public speaker (here at Spark), and I am definitely one of your devoted fans. You make me smile. You make me cry. You make me laugh out loud over the craziest, yet most serious of things.

Oh, and ... what a wonderful person you are to yourself .... once you get around to it, that is. Thank goodness you "get around" pretty quickly to that place you need to go.

Great Blog!!! emoticon

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