Thursday, February 28, 2013
Today was probably the most "BLAH" day I have ever had in a while. You know, one of those days where you knew you should've called in sick and just stayed in bed. Today was a serious down day in terms of my depression (which is weird because I actually remembered my medication). It got better for a while between talking to my best friend and art class, but then my stress levels just skyrocketed! I was late for a class I had an exam in, totally forgot all the answers to the multiple choice part, left out a part on the long answer portion, and was running late to choir practice because I thought it was at a later time. I felt soo much better after talking to the Chaplain on campus and headed to bootcamp. When bootcamp started it was great. I could tell there was a slight improvement in my performance. About halfway through though, I knew something wasn't right. I got dizzy and got a headache (nothing unusual for someone that's pretty inactive), but I recovered pretty quickly. But then I noticed something was going on with my right hip. I injured that hip eight years ago in gym class but it never really bothered me. Back then the doctors said it was just a bruised and sprained hip muscle. I didn't think much of it. I had known it to get tense before and it not be a big deal. But during the mountain-climbers, I felt a really strong "pop". I had to quit. I never even saw it coming. I even stretched before working out as opposed to last week! I can't remember a time when I was more mad at the limitations of my body. I'm extremely competitive. I was a Cadet Chief Master Sergeant in my Air Force JROTC class in high school, the only girl on our Raider team for JROTC as well as first alternate for the team (in front of a MALE), so believe me when I tell you that I give it my ALL! To know that my body now has such limitations as opposed to high school, infuriates me. I know it's a big chunk of pride swelling up in me, but I don't understand why now... after EIGHT YEARS! I know I can't expect to be where I was four years ago right off the bat, but I'm praying it heals soon, so I can work back towards that goal. Many prayers appreciated! Keep posted!
"Pride goes before destruction, And a haughty spirit before a fall."
~Proverbs 16:18 (NKJV)