Thursday, February 28, 2013
As I start to lift heavier I am noticing a lot of changes in my body. I also am taking creatine and lots of protein so I am putting on more muscle. In my head I know I might be gaining a few pounds in the meantime but there is apart of me that is afraid to gain. My clothes are fitting different. I am filling out those 6 jeans more and the arms in my shirt are a little tighter. Somehow I have to get over this mentality that my weight is the most important thing if I want to build muscle. My DH and I are going to The Arnold in Columbus on Saturday and I am hoping to find some new supplements and also meet some of the fitness competitors and models I admire. Hopefully that will give me more inspiration! Because I once was almost 300 lbs and have extra skin and need a lot of plastic surgery, I will never be able to compete like the ladies I admire so for me I know its just about being my own personal best and making the best out of what I have. My head keeps going back to what if I had never gained the weight and had not stretched my body out so much but I have to stay in the present because I cannot change what I did to my body by overeating and lack of exercise.