Thursday, February 28, 2013
Well I am in the later end of my Spark Coach program today, and I am to write about an area of my life that needs moderation....Hmmmmm.... EVERY THING!
I believe my whole life needs moderation. I can't do things half heatedly. Everything is all or nothing for me. Always has been. Is that from my experiences in childhood? Is it from my military background? Or is it my genetic makeup? I am not sure. But some of my previous blogs can give me a hint of areas to work on.
I think that because my weight and diet have such an important role in my life at this time, I will first focus on my areas within my diet I need to tend to . Sweet treats are more of a kicker to my diet than I once thought. For example, the girl scout thin mint cookies. Oh, boy do I like them. Well knowing that they were in my freezer was driving me mad! It took everything in me to not eat the whole box. I tried real hard not to eat more than 4 cookies (one serving) each day. But I came to the last few left and I panicked. There was six in there. I had to eat all six because if I didn't my husband would and then I wouldn't have them!
Warped thought. Duh! If I eat all six, there wouldn't be any left either! But that didn't cross my mind. I just couldn't let someone else have the last two! How disturbing! That was like I was in a kill mode regarding the last cookies! It was a fight or flight sensation. Scary really! OMG, do I feel like that about my food often? Sadly, yes I am!
When did I get this way? When did I get such aggressive thoughts about food? Wow. I have done that a lot. I often ate so much more than just one serving so I can get the last of something! Wow, that is really sad.
But I am not going to analyze that. What I need to do is compliment myself on the self discovery, Way to go Linda! And then I have to fix it.
I think I will start doing that little baggie thing with my food. One serving in each little bag. And only allow myself to eat them in moderation. If I do that and they come out an uneven number when I initially put them up I can give the extra to my husband. I don't think I would worry then about them being the last ones because I have more in baggies. That will also help my mind in knowing how many I have left so I can prepare myself mentally for the last ones.
All this will be a different way in dealing with this issue of over eating and eating in moderation! But I know I can do it!