Thursday, February 28, 2013
So I've been doing a really horrible job at waiting to weigh myself lately. Usually I dread weighing myself, but the last couple of weeks I've actually liked it (say whaaaat??)! I'm finally seeing those numbers going down again and I'm always looking forward to seeing them go down more. I know that I need to be sure that if the number does go up a little that I don't let it get to me and just keep plugging away and it will go back down.
I've been drinking my pink drink (Plexus) and have also been trying to walk more and also have been watching what I eat a lot more consistently. I've also been drinking my water which I think has made a HUGE difference! I'm starting to gain a little more self confidence again which I really needed. I checked my goal progress and I'm actually about 6 pounds ahead of the game!!! Its only 6 pounds, but it makes me feel like I finally have some extra footing and I'm not struggling to keep my head above water.
I've had to let go of some of my "what-if" fears when it comes to losing all of this weight- its been causing me to self-sabotage a lot. I'm SO afraid of the extra skin- I'm trying to be sure that I don't lose weight too quickly and also doing strength training exercises so keep that in check the best I can. I'm also not particularly looking forward to any extra attention. Yes, its nice when people notice that you're losing weight and comment on that, but I don't really want the "unwanted" attention that I might get as a result. Granted, I don't go out to the bars like I used to, and I work with almost all females, and the males that I do work with are either married or gay haha so it limits the "negative" attention to a certain extent. Also, I don't know how I'm going to feel about getting that positive attention that I'm not exactly used to. I wish that other people didn't base their desire to interact with someone else based on how they look- but I know that it happens. I guess I just don't want someone's attention if they weren't willing to give it to me now as I am. I am looking forward to feeling more attractive and more confident and am also hoping that it might help my current relationships (specifically the one with "The Boy") get stronger. Anywho...I don't have much more to ramble about right now... I just have to keep telling myself that change is a good thing even though its sometimes feared and not exactly wanted, sometimes change can be the best thing to happen to someone (me).
Until Next Time