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Growing and Learning

Thursday, February 28, 2013

Humph...who would have thought that once again I would be writing a starting over entry.

Whirlwind. That seems to be how life is and I have always used that as an excuse not to be working on my weightloss, health, and wellness. The odd thing is....life will always have some kind of craziness in it. Life will never just be simple and perfect, as much as I would desperately like it to be.

That is where the journey part comes in. Learning to live healthy and be healthy isn't an overnight thing. We take small steps...sometimes in the wrong direction....to relearn lessons that we thought we knew.

I suppose it isn't that I didn't learn it the first two times..but rather I reverted back to old behavior because it was comfortable....and comfort was what I wanted more than health.

Truth is that what is comfortable hasn't really worked in the past. Why I run back to it makes no sense in the world.

It is much like when I continued to run after my dad...seeking his approval...searching for his love and acceptance.

The only difference is that food will always approve and accept...the outcome is the same...brokenness...in some form or fashion.

I find it interesting how I always "need" someone or something else's approval and am willing to make myself miserable to get it full knowing that getting it means not being happy. However, when I do something to make myself happy I find guilt and misery and give up...knowing if I will hold on and work through the issue happiness will be mine.

I suppose the part of the journey that hurts so badly is letting go of what isn't and will never be. Letting go of the pain. Letting go of the comfortable things. Learning to grow and share and realize that pain happens to everyone. Everyone doesn't always deal with it like I do but pain, emotionally, is almost inevitable in this life to some degree.

I guess for me, the next step, is starting where I left off and realizing that I am not alone in that part of the journey.
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POSITIVEPAULA8 2/28/2013 6:11PM

    Things happen to us all at the best of times that put us off track and make us go back to our old ways just because it seems easier sometimes. At least you are able to see this now.

You also have to be really ready inside of you to make a change if you are not then you'll never really change because your inner core does not make it happen and you and try many times without much success. so make sure that you are really ready and want to do this for you!

You have to really want this for you! Not for others. It is your life and your journey through it and along the way as we all do you will have your life lessons that you need to learn.

We all have stumbling blocks along the way but keep going it will be worth it in the end.

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Take care You are awesome and can do this!

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OVERACTIVEELBOW 2/28/2013 6:59AM

    I empathize.
I have faith in you.
Life is just one continuous series of "Choices"

Each choice is for this moment (although it may impact future choices)

Choosing to exercise, choosing health eats, choosing healthy portions, choosing to relax, choosing to spend time with family/friends/doing something you love to do.

You can and will make the right choices for YOU.
Audra



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