I spin the wheel every day, and log my breakfast, and usually my lunch, and then I get stuck. My eating plan falls apart and I don't even bother to track it. I've been reading articles and blogs and enjoying being part of Sparkpeople, so the points I make doing these things makes it look like I'm achieving something. But I'm not. I'm getting close to moving to the next level, and I'll feel like a total fraud when I get there.

I've been in such a funk that I can't make myself exercise, or eat right, or anything else I should be doing around my house. And it shows in my waistline. I'm not unhappy, or sad, or depressed - just ??? Just - I don't wanna. I don't want to cook, I don't want to get on my treadmill, I don't want to go grocery shopping. I do want to read, and read, and read - so I am. I'm trying to figure out how to throw the switch back the other way. I'm hoping daylight savings time will help pull me up and "shed light" on a path I can follow. I know it will work itself out because it always does, and letting this go on is not even an option. I just didn't think this would last so long.

When I retire I just might have to spend half the year on this side of the equator, and half the year on the other side so I never have to endure the dark and cold that holds me in this lethargic state. A girl can dream can't she?