Wednesday, February 27, 2013
Well here I am. Not any weight lost...infact I've gained 4 lbs! Feeling very defeated, and miserable. I know there are more important things to life than just the outward appearance...I just feel crappy, out of shape, lethargic and at times hopeless. I feel caught in that "cycle" and pit...of no way out. Does this make sense? I'm sorry if this is pessimistic, and self-loathing.
It's just SUCH a struggle. I'm still exclusively nursing my daughter, which I'm so thankful for...and she is worth it! Just hoping that this weightloss will kick in soon.
My husband and I DO want to try for another baby once my daughter is around 18 months, so in less than a year I'm hoping to be pregnant with our 3rd (and last) baby!! There's NO way that I will want another baby if I can't lost this weight. Not due to self image, but regarding a healthy pregnancy. As with my 1st baby I had a lot of complications(and I wasnt really overweight), (long story).
Today is just a bad day. Looking for encouragement. Everywhere I turn it seems like its a competition between women, in who can lose the baby weight the fastest. Thats NOT my goal...but it IS to be healthy, and happy, and to be able to enjoy my kids and family without always shying away from the camera, and old friends if you know what I mean?