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Here I stand again...


Wednesday, February 27, 2013

So - I'm here at this moment yet again. Desperate to change my physique and nutrition...just not desperate enough to initiate the change.

A little of my background is I spent 20 years floating in the comfort of a nowhere job, leading a nowhere life. I got a swift kick in the pants by a boss who was failing and took me down with him. All of a sudden, my routine life turned not so comfortable.

I started school while working horrible hours, sometimes not seeing my children for days. I started spiraling down the horrible path of depression, never letting anyone see how damaged I felt I had become. I poured myself into wanting to be the best EMT student I could be, and upon graduating, began searching for a new job with better hours and more gratitude than where I currently was. I began volunteering at a local fire station, and found another part time job to supplement where I was already working. But it wasn’t enough to pull me out of my funk…
So I began another round of school. I quit the job that had beat me down for 20 years, and embarked on a new passion. Again my family suffered – long weeks filled with only 2 days home to see my husband and kids, and only those times at night, right before bed. But I prevailed, gaining a shiny badge stating “Firefighter”, and a paper declaring my prominent accomplishment as part of the “Bulldog” company. Slowly I am clawing my way back from the pit of depression.
I have a long road to go - as I am currently working on gaining my Firefighter 1 Certification by the end of March. I am hoping to gain some motivation to keep this resolve going, and have someone help keep me accountable. This site helped me out years ago, and I'm hoping it will again.
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JUSTLLAMA 2/28/2013 2:41AM

    Your story sounds so much like mine! I worked for years in a series of jobs that took me absolutely nowhere. My last job, I got laid off just as I was settling into complacency. I too went back to school (for nursing) and now have a job I love! My grandma always said "everything happens for a reason." God might not always show us the reason right away, but He definitely has a plan for us! I'm glad to see you are working towards something that you enjoy! It makes life so much happier that way!

I know it's hard, but it will be worth it in the end! Best of luck to you!

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CATHYGETSFIT 2/27/2013 5:44PM

    emoticon on becoming a Firefighter! Definitely a noble profession! Depression can be a horrible thing especially when it hangs on for such a long time! It's good that you are climbing back out of your depression and are looking to get some motivation. The Aspire & Inspire team has a monthly Buddy Support Group (BSG) Challenge that might help with your motivation and being accountable. Here is a link to what the BSG Challenges are http://www.sparkpeople.com/myspark/
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?board=18195x31050x39484%20018 and if you think this might be something that you want to do here is the link to sign up for the challenges http://www.sparkpeople.com/myspark/
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ard=18195x31050x52250571. Either way I wish you lots of luck in getting your Firefighter certificate and getting some motivation to keep going!

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