Wednesday, February 27, 2013
So - I'm here at this moment yet again. Desperate to change my physique and nutrition...just not desperate enough to initiate the change.
A little of my background is I spent 20 years floating in the comfort of a nowhere job, leading a nowhere life. I got a swift kick in the pants by a boss who was failing and took me down with him. All of a sudden, my routine life turned not so comfortable.
I started school while working horrible hours, sometimes not seeing my children for days. I started spiraling down the horrible path of depression, never letting anyone see how damaged I felt I had become. I poured myself into wanting to be the best EMT student I could be, and upon graduating, began searching for a new job with better hours and more gratitude than where I currently was. I began volunteering at a local fire station, and found another part time job to supplement where I was already working. But it wasn’t enough to pull me out of my funk…
So I began another round of school. I quit the job that had beat me down for 20 years, and embarked on a new passion. Again my family suffered – long weeks filled with only 2 days home to see my husband and kids, and only those times at night, right before bed. But I prevailed, gaining a shiny badge stating “Firefighter”, and a paper declaring my prominent accomplishment as part of the “Bulldog” company. Slowly I am clawing my way back from the pit of depression.
I have a long road to go - as I am currently working on gaining my Firefighter 1 Certification by the end of March. I am hoping to gain some motivation to keep this resolve going, and have someone help keep me accountable. This site helped me out years ago, and I'm hoping it will again.