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Flipping The Switch

Wednesday, February 27, 2013

At the end of August 2012 another significant event occured in my life. I won't go into details here. Suffice to say that I have suffered some setbacks. My mental focus changed completely for a time. It was like a switch in my mind had been turned off. Perhaps that was my body engaging in a fight or flight response...a personal defense mechanism to keep me safe. I'm not sure what happened mentally, but I DO know that for a time I just didn't give a damn. I went to counseling and that helped. I did what I had to do to survive. I seriously struggled with existing day to day, let alone monitoring my food, exercise and water intake! I was not in a good place. I ended up gaining back some of the weight that I worked so hard to lose. Not all of it, but more than I would have liked. As a result of this event my life has changed, again...completely out of my control - and it will never, ever be the same. It hit me so hard - I was completely blindsided by it. I see the world through different eyes...again...for the third time in 20 months. And I have learned a lesson. An extremely valuable one. The way I reacted? The way I took care of myself? That is OKAY. I did what I needed to do and now the seasons of my life are changing again. So now I need to get back to it. And I'm doing it - one day at a time. On Monday, February 18th, 2013, I made the decision to flip the switch back on! *I* made the conscious decision to stop the spiraling out of control and get back on track. I am delighted to report that it was MUCH easier than I anticipated! Hooray me! :)
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CATSPANK 2/27/2013 5:40PM

    Getting back in the game is what counts. emoticon

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