Wednesday, February 27, 2013
I can handle my diet without tracking and maintain a good weight but after realizing that one little bite led to another until I eat way too much I have realized eating chocolate is a major problem for me. Numerous times I have said I can just have a little bit and during that period I have felt great and looked my best but it always ends the same way. Smoking came up as a topic of conversation the other day and I realized that I have many of those addictive behaviors where chocolate is concerned. I am not saying that I am addicted in the way an alcoholic is, I'm not sure that is even possible. However, chocolate is having implications on my health, they may be mild at the moment but why do I want to wait until they are something more serious to fix this. Since chocolate has sneaked back in I have had headaches and general aches and pains much more often, my energy levels have plummeted and other vague symptoms are more noticeable.
It came to me while I was eating chocolate (strange because I had the same epiphany about smoking whilst smoking a cigarette) the only long term solution to this habit that is making me unhappy and unhealthy is to give it up completely. I have successfully given up smoking, alcohol and caffeine. By far the hardest was caffeine, probably because of the lack of support. When you choose to give up a substance like cigarettes or alcohol everyone recognizes the reasons and supports you and helps you. When you say you're giving up caffeine, people just see it as a phase with no real benefit, and maybe they feel you are criticizing their behaviors too. So I expect no support when it comes to giving up chocolate, expect my husband and hopefully here on Spark. I have already decided to give away or bin any chocolate gifts I receive. (By the way cocoa powder in small amounts is acceptable, I generally mean chocolate bars but I am sure that it will be further defined as I get through the first weeks)
With Easter coming up, it's going to be tough. A few years ago we received a lot of Easter eggs, we could have filled a large bin bag with them. It was only me and my husband so we each chose one egg and took the rest to the children's ward at our local hospital where they were gratefully received. That was the last time we ever received Easter eggs before or on Easter Sunday and even though we told no one I have suspicions that somehow the family found out and now always give us our Easter eggs late (We ask every year for no chocolate but everyone still buys it for us) It's worse this year because everyone will want to buy chocolate for Amelia. I have made a decision with this. I have asked family not to buy any of us chocolate for Easter, I doubt that will have any effect so I am just going to tell them thank you the chocolate was lovely, but I will try to give them away, failing that I will throw them in the bin. It sounds wasteful but I'd do the same if someone gave me a packet of cigarettes. But what should I do with the chocolate that is bought for Amelia? I'm thinking of keeping one egg for her and getting rid of the rest. I will just have to work extra hard on avoiding eating it myself.
I don't believe chocolate is that bad for you that everyone should avoid it, I think it can definitely play a part in a balanced diet but for me it's a different story. I hope everyone else goes on to enjoy their chocolate - in moderation of course!