Tuesday, February 26, 2013
My head, heart, and stomach are in a Mexican Standoff.
And they have been for a very long time. You know, the cliche moment in a comedy, drama, or dramedy when there are three people standing symmetrically apart, in the shape of a triangle, holding guns at each other - you're damned if you do and damned if you don't. No one wants to shoot first and so the looming threats and false promises ensue; everyone hopes to be the last one standing, everyone claims to be trustworthy, but they just want to get out alive.
My head says, "no" a lot. My stomach has almost always said, "yes" way more than it has the right to. And my heart just stands there, listening to the other two duke it out.
I've come to realize this proverbial Mexican Standoff is in my control and presently a primary reason for why I'm watching my life so passively. I also recognize that I am making very specific changes to end this standoff, beginning with my health and ability to handle stress in a healthy and productive way. I also understand that this will be a life process not a quick fix or even a maintenance thing. No one has put their gun down just yet, but stomach is definitely losing out to head and heart...
Here's to stress busting.