Tuesday, February 26, 2013
Today is day 9 of me being 'back on track'. I am so incredibly happy. I'm back to the lowest weight I have ever been as an adult. The last time I was here it was 2011, and when I reached this point, I was already kind of burnt out, and I also kind of freaked out because of the changes that were happening with my body. Now, I have a more positive outlook. I feel like this is really going to happen. I don't like saying 'this time' because it implies that there's an 'on' and 'off' time. This is permanent. If you want permanent weight loss, you have to do it permanently.
I've been doing well so far this last week with really making sure that I don't tie emotion to the foods I eat. I've been giving a little more during each workout too. I was at the gym for about 2 hours, even though it wasn't my original intention. I know I'm not overworking myself. I just go in, and workout until I feel like I've done enough. I don't exhaust myself. I actually feel more energized after that point. Today I'm going to focus on running. I lifted weights yesterday, so I'm going to give that a rest today. It's amazing how when you put energy and effort into something, you really can accomplish anything.
I know that I am going to get there. I'm not going to sabotage myself again. I deserve this. I even dressed nice today because I was so incredibly proud of myself. I will see this through. I feel my confidence going up, and I think that's part of why I'm doing so well in school. The self confidence is so amazing. I feel wonderful for it.