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Stressed out and My Heroes Remembered.

Tuesday, February 26, 2013

I really wanted to blog this am but I still can’t really think of what to say. I’m very grateful for all the support over the last two days. I’ve really needed it.

Emotionally I’m really numb. There is just so much stress; taxes, money, home repairs I can't do but need, etc, this stuff with the boy child is just “the straw that broke the camel’s back”. I also found out yesterday a dog I've been working SO hard with bit someone to the point of stitches. He was put down this am.But I also don’t like whining – doesn’t help anything.

I did catch myself googling Margaret Thatcher this afternoon. Why? I think because she was one of my hero’s as a teen. I thought Regan and Gorby were tough and here was this woman who could go toe to toe with both of them. Some people loved her, some hated her, but she was always confident and composed. I wanted that confidence and composure.

Guess that’s how I got to be a fan of Katharine Hepburn. I used to watch her movies with my mom and gram. Then I learned more about her and how she actually stood up to Hollywood and fought her way back from being blackballed. She always refused to be anyone but who she was. Amazing strength and conviction!

I have a hard time with heroes as an adult. It has become too easy to see the flaws of character. But the heroes of my teens – I can remember them and how they made me feel. I can remember WHY I wanted to be like them. What those women stood for, at least in my mind.

So, they are going to be my strength again. I’m going to start trying to remember the heroes and goals I had as a teen and young adult. The time when I stood tall and could bent without breaking. I still have that and it will get me through boy child problems, and tax trouble, and money trouble, and house trouble, and all the rest of the crap that is trying to bury me under. If I stand tall and be true to me, I’ll find my way to the other side.


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  • WARRIORGIRL121
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    1657 days ago
  • MERRY_XMAS
    Amazing blog... Thank you for sharing your heroes with us... We all need a hero... More times than we want to admit emoticon
    1668 days ago
  • RIDMYCOCOON
    Great quotes! emoticon
    1670 days ago
  • CATHYSFITLIFE
    Life has it's ups and downs. Right now you are going through one of those down points in life. I know it's hard to think that things will get better when you have tons of crap piled on top of you and your just trying to claw your way out. Things will get better though!

    I'm so sorry about the dog you'd been working with! emoticon

    It's kind of funny in a way but I too had these same heroes! When I was a kid and thought about Margaret Thatcher it made me want to be president of the United States! lol I wouldn't want that now but still she definitely had an impact on me. I always really like Katherine Hepburn too! Honestly, I don't know of any woman in this day and age that is a good role model / hero for girls.

    Keep your chin up and take it one day at a time! You'll get through this! emoticon
    1670 days ago
  • HOPEFULHIPPO
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    1670 days ago
  • CASEYSAUER
    I say "Follow the heros until you find your own cape!". Peace, Girlfriend, you can do it!
    1671 days ago
  • KITRONA
    Beautiful! You'll do it, and do it with style, as always. :) Hugs!
    1671 days ago
  • TWEETYKC00
    Hang in there honey, we're here for you.
    1671 days ago
  • SIEGRID
    I think you are a hero!!!! emoticon
    1671 days ago
  • JUSTME29
    All I can offer is a hug - so *hugs*
    1671 days ago
  • SOULFISH80
    Standing tall as the shovels of dirt drop on your head to "bury" you is the only way. It's hard, it sucks, you want to scream and cry (atleast I do) but in the end, strength is the only option. Positive strength always wins. Worry helps nothing, if the thing you are worrying about happens, the worrying didn't help, if it doesn't happen, the worrying was a waste. Either way, worrying and negativity will not move you forward. Oh boy, I understand hard times, I've had a life full of them. But, somehow, each time I choose to be positive and strong, each trial gets easier, and moves by faster. It is so great to be able to vent on here, the SP blog forum has helped me through so many terrible times. And then we move forward, the spark comes back, and we are all together for the good times too. I hope for the very best for you in everything that comes your way. You are strong, smart, talented and determined, much like your teenagehood role models, you will come out the winner in these situations, one baby step, and positive thought at a time. I'm sorry you are facing the trials now, trial times SUCK!!! But in the end, you will overcome, stronger, smarter and more able to face the next round.
    1671 days ago
  • SEASONS_CHANGE_
    You, my friend are one of the strongest people I've known... You'll get through this.
    1671 days ago
  • JUMPINJULIE
    You can do this. I have a great quote for you from Winston Churchill "If You're going thru hell keep going!" emoticon
    1671 days ago
  • CIPHER1971
    Your strength is amazing, I am glad you are finding strength in other places to support you
    1671 days ago
  • 1EMMA2011
    Love both of these ladies! Great job!

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    1671 days ago
  • DEEBREW6
    Can't think of any better role models. Hang in there! No journey is easy and you will get there. Keep your focus. emoticon emoticon Its always sad having an animal put down. I'm sorry...
    1671 days ago
  • FUSIONFITNESS3
    You've choosen some fine role models to give some much needed inspiration during this time of struggle for you. So glad you are looking to the positive as challenging as that may be. Keep your focus. You will come through the other side as hard as it may be to get there. Keep going, Kitty.

    Maria
    1671 days ago
  • BESCATS
    Margaret Thatcher was a great woman, and I loved Katherine Hepburn. You picked two great ladies as your role models. Women of yesteryear had much more to overcome than the women of today, at least I think so....
    I know I am strong when I need to be. Many years ago I sued my employer for harassment, and it was the hardest 3 years of my life, but I MADE IT, and WON !!!!
    Kitty, you hang in there, you WILL endure.

    ~~~~~I AM WOMAN~~~~~hear me roar !!
    1671 days ago
  • BEAUTY_WITHIN
    I'm sorry about the dog hon :( that's sad. *hugs* I think the hero idea is a good one :)
    1671 days ago
  • 1CRAZYDOG
    Google Audrey Hepburn as well! she went through so much as a child during WWII.

    HUGS my dear. Life can get so overwhelming. I feel your pain with the boy child. I went through so much with mine too. **SIGH** All I can tell you is hang tight. That's all I can tell you. Doesn't make it easier, but just know you're not alone.


    1671 days ago
  • ANATASHIKI
    I don't know if I'm strong, probably not , more like stubborn. I like Katharine Hepburn too.Hang in there , it will all pass emoticon
    1671 days ago
  • LESLIELENORE
    I think we need heroes and role models... even as adults.
    1671 days ago
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