Tuesday, February 26, 2013
After two weeks I finally got the courage to get back on the scale. 191.4. I've gained 2.4 pounds. That's not terrible. I can bounce back from that. Considering how little water I've been getting and how much sodium-rich foods I ate yesterday, a pound of that is probably water weight anyway. The point is, though, that this is the first step to getting back on track for me.
I might have discovered the reason I've been so fatigued, lethargic, and depressed lately: I'm sick. I've had nasal/chest congestion and a sore throat for about four or five days now, but it wasn't until today that I had the thought to assess any of it. I have a slightly elevated temperature (I couldn't call 99.3 a fever) and gobby yellow stuff, so I probably have an infection of some sort. That on top of the poor food choices would explain a lot. The first step is to up the fluids and properly enrich my diet, and we'll see how I feel after that.
I've gotten into the sleep schedule of going to bed around three in the morning and waking up around 11 am. today I used that morning time to cook. I made two 265 servings of this cheesy veggie macaroni recipe from Spark Recipes. It turned out great except my zealous use of greek yogurt (and extra two ounces, oops!) made it ridiculously creamy. I also stumbled upon Fat Free shredded cheddar at the grocery store, and that excites me because I can be generous in my use of cheese without going over on calories. Yay for small victories. That means I've got two meals portioned out, and I've still got a few baked chicken thighs left over from Thursday to boost my protein intake.
At the store yesterday I also got fixings to concoct my own vegetable beef stew. I have to use ground meat instead of stew meat because that was the only grass-fed option I had, but with fresh potatoes, carrots, peas, celery, corn, and green beans, I think it will turn out fine. I love veggies soups (so low in calories you can eat a ton of it!) but the pre-made/canned kind are so bad for you! Here's hoping whatever I throw together ends up being tasty. I'm also considering reworking my famous chicken tortilla soup recipe to be more calorie friendly. I miss that stuff so much, and I can't believe I haven't made any of it since like, May 2012. That's crazy! Sometimes I can't believe how much time has passed since I've made all these changes to my life.
I've already had my chocolate shake for breakfast this morning on top of a cup of oolong tea and a cup of green chai to sooth my throat. Around 2pm before I leave work I'll probably have a 200 calories in chicken thigh, then grab a 100 calorie snack and one of those veggie macaroni things for dinner at work. Maybe an apple to curb any random cravings. That should set me up for super success for food for the day. That's like, 835 calories. I can do that.
As of right now I'm going to go through with the part-time job thing. For now. The money is a tremendous motivator, and I think spending four hours a day on my feet, walking and jogging around will help boost my activity level. It will only be three days a week, so I think I can handle that. I've got a huge in with the manager, so I'm going to try and work it out where I have at least one day a week where I don't work at either job. And of course, if I find that it's too stressful or draining or just plain not worth the money, I can always quit. There's no shame in that, even though the very thought makes me feel super guilty. At least this go round the only thing in the store that fits me are the bras, so I won't have to worry about spending my paycheck on clothes.
Try to look on the bright side of things, haha. Well, it's about time to hop in the shower or I'll be late for work. Here's hoping that I start to feel better physically and emotionally so I can FINALLY get down into the elusive 180s. If I can keep the food intake under 1500 calories, then today will be a success. Here's hoping.
Hope everyone is having a fabulous day today!