Tuesday, February 26, 2013
(I'm not exactly having a creative day, so no whitty title)
I’ve been feeling rather down and discouraged the last couple of days, and not just about my lack of weight loss, but about everything (you know how it is, little things compound until it feels like everything is the end of the world), so I thought it would be good to reflect on what petty things are getting to me.
I should probably preface this one with the statement that between work, studying and just being painfully shy, I don’t get out much. Which means having any sort of social plans is a big deal, leading to all sorts of expectation and hope, and ultimately being let down because every night out can’t be the best night ever. This is where I found myself this weekend, actually haveing two nights of plans, and my cousin visiting to act as social safety net. Fun? Yes. Good for blowing off some steam? Yes. But I can’t help feeling that I didn’t manage to make any lasting impression for change going forward. Will I be included on more invite lists in the future? Maybe. Will I have someone to make arrangements with so I don’t have to go alone? Doubtful.
On top of that, my total lack of progress in terms of studying and the horrible realization that I only have 2 months left before my exam have me in full out panic mode (not helped by the weekend of having fun).
As for the weight loss, I’m starting to come to terms with just how many little things I do to sabotage my efforts. Hopefully admitting that just how bad I am will be the first step to turning things around and making some small changes to do better. (Well that and the 5K I registered to run in April which will force me to get off my butt….)