Tuesday, February 26, 2013
I have been heartbroken for almost 10 days .. on Saturday, one of my daughters U12 softball coachs died in a single car accident in Atlanta. We received word from our head coach and it was and still is just unreal. My husband and I were together on the way to pick up my daughter from her friends, when we had to tell her Coach Dane had passed away in a car accident. Lots of things about this are wrong in so many ways - but it really does make you reflect on yourself and your life. He leaves a wife, and a 12 year old daughter. I have 4 kids - what would happen if that was me .. could my husband or could I live on and not have to live hand to mouth. The answer is not what I would like to say - its No .. We would definetly have hard times - just like they are - because at our age - it is not something you worry about. Needless to say - we are changing that. Insurance policies are in process to take care of our kids and our spouses. We have to think of the unthinkable sometimes - and this was a real wake up call.
I have to get ahold of my weight - I don't want to get sick because of my weight - I don't want to be unable to get around of be dependent on people because of it either. So yesterday, when I had my follow-up with my new doctor - I talked to her about it. I have wanted to try phenetermine for a while -because I never feel full - so that is why I overeat. I need to retrain my brain. I asked my other doc - and she said because of my thyoid function she would not let me take it. My new doctor said that isn't a reason not too. Yes, I can lose weight with diet and exercise - but I really want to lose 100 lbs all together. So .. is it okay to use medication as a jump start ... to get to were my joints do not ache. I decided - I needed help. I have to get to where it is easier to move around - and were it is easier to be active .. YES I can and will continue to do my cardio and my strength training, I am not rellying on a pill to make me thin - I guess I want something to help me.
It has been a very tough few weeks - but getting my health back is what I need to do for my family as well as for myself. If anyone has had issues, or success with this medication .. I would love to hear!