Tuesday, February 26, 2013
Maintenance is a minefield. I got to the weight where Weight Watchers lets me attend meetings for free late last year. So at that time, I intended to lose another 5 - 10 pounds to move more safely into the normal BMI range for my height. I have kept up with the journal, although sometimes just on paper without calculating the calories, Went down about 2 pounds from that original maintenance goal, then it has been a fight ever since to stay down. I wondered what happened back in 2006 or 7 when I began the regain of about 30 - 40 pounds from this weight I am now.
AHA. Now I remember.
The thoughts are resurfacing these days, especially this morning when I was .4 pounds over my original goal. It will be March soon, and one month from my last "free" weight watchers weigh in. I have lost track of how many of my goal of 365 days of journal have passed. I am stressed at work, and at home. I am bone tired of all of this. It just feels impossibly hard, and my HEAD starts saying "well it would be easier to maintain if you just went for a healthy weight and never mind the weight watchers thing. You Know that you are very healthy a few pounds heavier than this, and you are Not going to reach that goal of being 10 pounds less than now....."
NO. Just NO. I am AT goal now. No way this crazy brain is going to get me to let it go this time. HELP me everyone !! I need sane remarks. Motivation. Something.