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Flip flop

Tuesday, February 26, 2013

Yesterday was a flop, but today is a new day. It is so frustrating how so much of my eating depends on the actions of others. I know I should be stronger, but what it boils down to is sleep. That has been the determining factor in my success or failure for the last 5 years now. I guess that is part of being a mom, but man am I tired of it. Sunday night my son (2) slept awful. From 1:30 – 5:30 am, we were both awake. Ridiculous and insane. I am pretty sure that it was gas that was keeping him up, but whatever it was, wore me out. When he finally fell asleep for good at 5:30, I was exhausted. I slept until 6:40 which might not have been the wisest choice (seeing as I am supposed to be up by 6 so we can leave by 7), but I needed some kind of sleep. I actually made it to daycare and school and was only late by a few minutes thankfully. However, the rest of the day was rough. I was tired and dragging. I made it through lunch eating ok, but by the time school dismissed, I was starving. I almost stopped by taco bell and sonic on the way to get the kids, but I didn’t. I resisted and was proud of myself. Until dinner. For dinner we ordered pizza and I ate way too much. It was so good though. It was worth it. I didn’t feel bad or guilty for eating it either. Yesterday might not have been “success” but I survived it and sometimes, that is all I can hope for.

Today is a new day. I am still tired, but that isn’t anything new. My husband and I woke to a fight…long, funny story. Not exactly the way that anyone wants to wake up though. I hope to eat better today and to exercise. Focus on portion control. Today is the first day without a diet coke. I drank my last one that I had at the house yesterday. Thank goodness I had it or I might not have made it through the day. I hope it goes okay. I am worried about getting a headache from not having one. One step at a time.
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    I agree so much with the sleep and eating issue. Two weeks ago when I was home from work with back issues I got plenty of sleep and ate so much less. Now that I'm back to work and not sleeping as well I want to munch through the day.
    1818 days ago
    I understand my child was running a fever of 103 on Saturday so i did not get to sleep until 4:00am but i knew I needed sleep despite my desire to eat something. I have been soda free for 10 years, meat free for 1 year and at a healthy weight for going on 2 years.
    I know it is hard as a Mom but you will do fine and i am sure will find the success you desire emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon
    1818 days ago
    A sister of mine has also such a huge dependency on Coke that her head aches when she does not drink it. I only drink plain water, and preferably no ice.
    1819 days ago
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    Praying for you!

    1819 days ago
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