Tuesday, February 26, 2013
I did it! Day 1 down... and it felt pretty great while I was doing it! Now, an hour later... my back is killing me... my muscles are screaming and I'm thinking "What did I get myself into?" But I'm NOT Quitting!!! Day 2 is on Thursday, and Lord willing, I'll get out of bed and be here to do it again! Get past the pain and the pain will subside!
The toughest part is for me is the fear of failure! I want this so bad ~ but I've always "wanted" it.... I've always "failed".... but I keep getting back up! I just need to move forward when I get back up... I need to not stay where I fell!
With Shawn's help on this, I'm going to get past where I fell! I'm not going to let him down... becuase ultimately I'm letting myself down! By finally asking for help, I think maybe this time I will be successful! Sad that I had to get to that point of being so broken that I ask for help... but yet, at least I asked!