Tuesday, February 26, 2013
Just watched last night's Biggest Loser and the theme was facing your fears. It really got me thinking about what my biggest fear was. I wondered if others faced the same fears. So this morning I'm going to share mine and hopefully others will share theirs as well and together maybe we can find a way to overcome them. So here goes....
My biggest fear is actually a few all wrapped into the same basic principle. I fear letting down the people that I love and I fear that I will never know what it's like to feel like I accomplished something, that I have done something right. I have an equal fear of both success and failure. Failure for the above reasons and success because I fear never coming to a day when I succeed and actually recognize it. I wake and end each day feeling like I failed and it doesn't really matter what good things happened during the day. I know I could be so much more than I am, that I could give my family so much more than I am, that I could accomplish so much more than I have but I honestly don't know where to start and am so overwhelmed that I end up doing next to nothing toward that end. I've been trying to hard to stay on track with the weight loss thing but I don't see a lot of results. I go to the doctor this week and so I will find out if I have lost any weight or if I am still fighting a losing battle. The problem with doing what needs to be done to find success in every area that I am lacking in is that it requires me to add more, much more to my already overrun schedule, my already depleted energies and motivation, my already uber stressful life. So much of my life is under the control of someone else right now and I'm not doing well with that. So much rides on my shoulders and I am just not getting the job done an any front.
So that's my really pathetic and depressing share for today..
Anyone else? Would love to hear what everyone else is facing.
At any rate, got motivation from The Biggest Loser, Both teenagers actually spoke to me this morning, ate a healthy breakfast, drank some water, straightened the kitchen and took a walk..so off to a good start to make the day a success. Off to work....I need to kill this today...TUWANDA!
Have a great day!