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Will You Cry a Little?

Monday, February 25, 2013

emoticon For the first time in five years I went to put on a pair of jeans and couldn't get them on. I probably could have jiggled and squeezed, but I would have been totally uncomfortable. I had to buy a new (bigger) business suit for a meeting.

I've been watching the scale inch up for over a year, but this is the first real bang me over the head moment. My weight is out of control.

What I'm doing is just not working. I've let the craziness at work completely take over my life outside of work. I've eaten all of the stress and worry. I've let a crazy situation do horrible damage to my health.

I'm not completely distraught though. And that is remarkable. In the past, if I was gaining weight, I would just sink further and further into depression. I would give up the situation as hopeless.

Right now, all I'm thinking about is what kind of plan I can put together to get back on track. I'm thinking about the strategies I used to lose 130 pounds in the first place. Deciding which of them will be of the best use to me right now.

For me, it starts with numbers.

Not the ones on the scale though. How many days of the month I complete cardio. How many days I weight train. How many days can I go without junk food? How many miles can I complete in forty-five minutes?

I'm starting over on March 2. I'm not starting today because I'm travelling this week. One of the things that really helps me is planning meals and preparing my own food. I can't really do that on the road. I'm at a meeting where most of the meals are provided, so I don't have much control there at all.

I can get to the hotel gym though. I probably can come up with some salads. I can get this plan written down so I hit the ground running when I get home.

And perhaps most important, I can ask for help. I need to get a support team around me to help keep me accountable. I haven't had that for a while. I have more of an "unaccountability" team. We are all lazy together. We're all gaining together.

Argh! There are so many things that are broken right now... Can't fix them all at once, but I've got to take on something.

Things at work are settling down and I will be here more often. I miss you, Spark Peeps.

Member Comments About This Blog Post:
MAIZEY 2/26/2013 8:38PM

    You've got a great plan to change your habits. Plus, as you said, support here from friends.

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PATTYR81 2/26/2013 10:34AM

    I'm with ya!!

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JACARD 2/26/2013 9:30AM

  I will definitely cry for you -- just a tear -- and then stand up to cheer you on! You can do it!

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KANOE10 2/26/2013 9:07AM

    Hang in there. We all go through slumps and then need to work on up pounds. Your plan are excellent. You have all of the strength and tools in you from losing that 130 pounds. You can do it.


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CHEFSOPHIE 2/25/2013 11:25PM

    I can relate. I left a meeting at seven tonight, and was half way back to the office before I realized I needed to be going home. I know you can do this and I am here to support you.

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BRENDAGAIL9 2/25/2013 11:25PM

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PLUMERIA50 2/25/2013 10:51PM

  I think delaying until the trip is over is wise. emoticon

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MEMEEMEEE 2/25/2013 9:25PM

    You are not alone and you can do this!

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DIFROMWYOMING 2/25/2013 9:24PM

    Wishing you all the best! emoticon

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