So I have been struggling at this for... well, forever.

I had a great run of it about 10 years ago and lost 100lbs. Over the years, about 60 of those pounds have crept back on and now I am in quite the rut.

I have tried going back to what I know. I have tried different plans, different attitudes, but at the end of the day, Im still me.

Now it is time to get serious. Im in my mid 30's and it is NOT going to get any easier to get rid of this ballast that I am carrying around.

I figured out that I spend a LOT of time sabotaging my own success.

When I lost the weight last time, I was working for a Health & Fitness equipment manufacturer. We were encouraged to test the equipment on a pretty regular basis and I got into the best shape of my life. I was running 10K's at lunch. I could get on a treadmill and run at 10mph for several minutes to test the electronics. I could bike straight up hills and power over obstacles. This was how I lost the last 40 lbs or so... talk about setting yourself up for failure.

About 6 years ago, I had to leave that company and I have moved back to a more... Sedentary job. Don't get me wrong, I love my current job, but they aren't really pushing me to best my time in a 10K or hit an athletic goal. I am an engineer who spends about 5 hours out of every day sitting in front of a computer and the other 3 hours in meetings.

The reason my high activity job was actually BAD for me is that I COULD EAT ANYTHING THAT I WANTED!!! I got out of the good habits that I had developed during the first 60 lbs of weight loss because you can undo a lot of bad eating by burning 700 calories on a run every day.

So what am I gonna do about it?

TEAR IT DOWN!!!

As much as I would like to be, I am not that athlete right now. I can run a 5K if I really want to, but it certainly isn't fun. I could probably run a 10K if I REALLY had to, but my body hurts just thinking about it.

I am a beginner again. Small steps toward a BIG goal.

I don't need to run a 10K at lunch. A good 30 minute walk is a LOT BETTER than sitting at my desk thinking about running. If I can make myself walk 6-7 days per week instead of trying (and failing) to run 3 days per week, it will pay dividends.

I don't need to do Cross Fit or HIT to get a good workout. A deck of cards and my workout shorts will work just fine. I will get back into the shape that I want, but for now I just need to move.

I don't need to burn huge amounts of calories if i manage the calories that come in.

No Cheating

No Excuses

No BS!!!