The last week or so I've been strangely unhungry and trying desperately to figure out why. First I thought it was the eggs and whole grain english muffins I started eating. Hey! Eggs have protein and fat and are generally fine in moderation. Then one day I didn't have time for eggs so I ate a protein bar and an apple. Still not that hungry all day. Hmm. This is weird. This morning the first thing I ate was a banana, followed by an english muffin with light butter, plain greek yogurt and blackberries with a tsp of honey.
I HAVE BEEN STARVING ALL DAMN DAY.
So what changed? BANANAS.
I only eat bananas that are still slightly green. The sickly sweet flavor of bananas with brown spots makes me feel sick to my stomach. Last week, the only bananas I could find at the three stores I shopped were already beginning to brown, so I didn't buy any bananas. SO ALL LAST WEEK I DIDN'T EAT BANANAS AND I FINISHED EVERY NIGHT EASILY UNDER MY MAX RANGE.
The week before that? I was constantly struggling to stay under my max range. What did I eat every morning for breakfast? BANANAS.
I mean, what the hell is up with that? I don't want to give up bananas, I like them, but if eating them in the morning is going to make me so hungry I go over my calories every day, I don't know what to do. Perhaps I should save them for dessert?
It's now 5:30 PM and I have 56 calories left. This makes me SAD. =( I've done so well this week with calories. Tomorrow is weigh-in day. I cheated and checked today and it was not the direction I was hoping for. I've eaten a lot of sodium today and I don't anticipate tomorrow's weigh in being good. I'm really stressed about it, I know it will go back down soon, but I AM annoyed by the banana thing. I've gotten used to eating bananas for breakfast! The only thing I can think of is it's too big a dose of sugar for me in the morning. I need to stick to savory breakfast foods or oatmeal.
On a more positive note I believe the cream and ointment I was prescribed are starting to work, but I actually am beginning to doubt I really have a tinea infection. By the way, my doctor said TINEA, but do you know what tinea is?! RINGWORM. There are forms of eczema (discoid/nummular) that can resemble ringworm, so it's often misdiagnosed as ringworm. Luckily I am on both hydrocortisone and an anti-fungal. The insides of my elbows definitely seem to be clearing up, which was where I had it the mildest. My left elbow looks and feels totally normal now. My right elbow has slight color and feels a touch rough, but is definitely improved, so hopefully this is representative of healing over the rest of the breakout.
Deep breaths, Andrea. Tomorrow will be day one of The Banana Experiment. No banana for breakfast. Banana for dessert!! HAHA! I WILL CONQUER YOU EMPEROR CAVENDISH!
(Yes, yes, I know, I'm crazy.)