i've been bouncing around the 220's for years. i haven't been below 223 in a very, very long time. got on the scale this morning and i was at 223!!!!! i realize now that i thought i'd never actually get below 224. i feel so motivated right now! i know it's too early to say, but i'm gonna say it anyway: i never want to see 224 again!! in a few weeks i hope to be able to say i never want to see the 200s again!

i remember when i first got to 175. as in, gained my way up to 175. i said this is too close to 200, got down to 145 and just let everything go. soon i was up to 225 and felt completely lost and out of control. i've learned over the last few years where that came from, but i still don't really know why. as far as i can tell it was because i was so unhappy with my life. debt, fat, bored, unhappy...i realize now that as unhappy as i was about everything in my life, i just accepted it and lived with it. i don't want to do that anymore. i have a better life now. i have a house, a daughter a wonderful husband. i'm working my way out of debt, it'll be a long journey, but one i'm willing to tackle. the weight loss is the same journey. i know they are connected and i have to work at both with equal determination to make one work as succesful as the other.

as for my list of goals last week. slowly tackling them. haven't talked to dh yet. i have to gather my thoughts better on that. maybe i'll work on that today. yesterday i sorted through a couple piles of paperwork, etc that were being moved around to get them out of the way. now everything is tossed, recycled, filed and GONE! it's a wonderful feeling. i felt very accomplished when i finished.

so here's to a great week!