Monday, February 25, 2013
I can't believe it's nearly March! Yesterday my youngest turned 3! We had a small family party, he has a ton of new toys, it was a lot of fun.
I was looking at some old pics from his 1st year, and WOW, am I so glad I decided to get healthy. So much of my life I wasted not only being 10-20lbs over-weight, and unhappy about it, but I ate like crap. I didn't pay attention to if I ate any fruit or veggies that day. I didn't think about trying to get a good variety and range of meats or proteins. When I bought yogurt it was mostly for taste, not for which was the best nutritionally AND tastes good! I hated exercise, I was never good at athletics, and I never GOT IT, that I HAD to exercise most days of the week, for the rest of my life. That would have really bummed me out a few years ago, lol. But now, I enjoy it. And more importantly, I enjoy feeling better!
February was a good month. I really kicked but and worked out 6 days every week. Since Aiden's been great with me working out, I do it while he's awake, and I am even able to do 45-60 mins most days! I feel good doing that, I think my body needed more challenging, and honestly, it keeps me from getting bored! My running I've really improved, the treadmill is much easier for me when working on pace. However, Sat. I went for a run outside- the first in 5 weeks- and my pace was NOT so great. Although it was a bit snowy still, maybe I just wasn't used to the more "total body workout" from the outdoors vs. treadmill? Whatever, it's ok, I enjoyed the fresh air and I can challenge my pace during the week indoors!
February did offer many occasions, birthdays, Valentines dinner, for splurging. Even though those days I should have held back, I lost a couple more pounds this month. We'll see officially on Friday, but I am down now to 113. And after my last blog, I decided it was silly to worry about a few pounds. I will try to work on getting there, but if it doesn't happen, well, I don't want to be chasing losing 3lbs for the rest of my life. I think more importantly, I just need to keep finding new activities to challenge me physically that I enjoy. And, to keep eating clean.
Which brings me to the last thing on my mind today. So, since the new year, I've been thinking more about processed foods and how terrible they are for you and I've slowly been moving over to less and less of that junk. I have been eating a ton of fresh fruits and veggies and nuts. In addition to my normal dairy, whole grains and lean proteins. But, I think it is certainly making me feel good, I used to eat so much snack stuff as a treat, recently I'm just trying to eat REAL food as much as I can ! However, my glitch, is that even though I enjoy all that healthy food 99% of the time, and honestly do NOT feel cheated while doing it, when I DO get a day or meal to splurge, I have this urge like never in my life to just EAT. I'm no longer happy with one cupcake. I want another. And the shame factor of having a second, seems to be lessening. I don't know what to do about it? I know a second cupcake won't kill me, or a second plate of chips and dip, however one is and should be enough. I've been making some mini-treats, and my sister had mini-cupcakes as well at my nieces bday party, which helped, because I had I think it was 4 mini cupcakes, which is probably about 1.5-2 regular sized. Still...idk, like I said, I don't feel cheated, and I do even splurge during the week from time to time, it's not like I'm a nazi with my eating. But nothing explains why all of a sudden I went from not having much of a sweet tooth (esp say 3 yrs ago) to seemingly out of the blue being unable to control myself at times.
I want to end on a happy note though! I will pat myself on the back and say good work- for all the healthy eating, for all the hard workouts, for NOT putting off working out- even when I'm tired and had both kids (winter break) all week last week...still worked out every single day! I really do miss it when I don't workout...so, I'm proud that my interests are changing from just wanting to sit and relax to wanting to get up and move! Not just this last month or last year, but the last 2.5 years that I've made my lifestyle change! I'm so glad I am no longer cringing at pictures of me, but saying, wow, I look good there! :)