Monday, February 25, 2013
Iím eating through the junk. I know Ė itís probably not the best idea but Iím doing it as a means to Ďweaní. As there is less Ďjunkí options, Iím trying to replace them with healthier options. Eg. use a Lipton Sidekicks noodle package for this meal but once thatís gone, Iíll have to come up with a healthier sidedish etc. And of course all the crackers, chips and chocolateÖ. I know the chocolate stash is running low and I will likely be entering a sugar detox within the next few days. Itís good, I need to do it but it still sucks for a few days. Iíve never been one that adds sugar to things Ė like tea or coffee or cereal, I just eat things with sugar in them Ė like licorice and chocolate.
I finally got on the scale yesterday for the first time in almost a year. Iíve gained 30lbs since then. Thatís how fast I can gain weight Ė when they say the average is like 10 lbs a year Ė multiply it by 3 for me. My clothes are tight and Iím uncomfortable a lot of the time and of course that last flight in which my seatbelt was so tight I almost needed an extender was a clear indication that I wasnít doing anything in moderation and needed to start reigning things in.
Slowly over the past week Iíve been trying to just do one or two things a day that make a difference Ė for example this morning at coffee break instead of going and getting one of those awesome cinnamon and sugar rolls at the coffee shop, I had an apple and a cup of tea. Iím surprisingly satisfied Ė itís not a solution every time but today it seemed to work.
Yesterday I did some yoga. I used to go to a private yoga class (only 3 students) that was specifically designed for large people who canít do all those fancy things Ė like sit back on your heels!! I know Ė skinny people have no idea that we are unable to sit on our heels because we have fat on our thighs and calves. Haha.
Anyway, I adored my yoga and my chiropractor adored me going to yoga because it was really helping with my back strength. But then my yoga teacher moved away and I was so attached to her I just didnít want to start a whole new trust and comfort circle with someone else. So I didnít do it for a while. My yoga teacher had given me a book when she left that she had read many years before and felt it had changed her life and she hoped that I would read it too. Itís called The 8 Human Talents and itís about using Kundalini Yoga (the type of yoga we did). I didnít read it for 2 months but the other day I picked it up and started reading it and Iíve been inspired to try to do the yoga on my own. And it really felt so good Ė to just be moving again. Stretching, strengthening Ė it actually felt awesome.
I havenít gotten into Ďhardcoreí cardio workouts yet Ė I havenít even gone for a walk. But as I said, if I try to do it all at once Iíll last about 2 weeks before I mess up, feel guilty about that and then quit altogether.
So this week Iím going to concentrate on doing some more yoga and working with my exercise ball which I just got. Iím already finding it kinda fun to just hang out on it and watch tv, occasionally do some push ups off of it, stretch etc. Better than just lying on the couch right? (Though the cat would beg to differ, sheís mad because she hasnít had a tummy to lie on!)