Eating through the junk.
Monday, February 25, 2013
I’m eating through the junk. I know – it’s probably not the best idea but I’m doing it as a means to ‘wean’. As there is less ‘junk’ options, I’m trying to replace them with healthier options. Eg. use a Lipton Sidekicks noodle package for this meal but once that’s gone, I’ll have to come up with a healthier sidedish etc. And of course all the crackers, chips and chocolate…. I know the chocolate stash is running low and I will likely be entering a sugar detox within the next few days. It’s good, I need to do it but it still sucks for a few days. I’ve never been one that adds sugar to things – like tea or coffee or cereal, I just eat things with sugar in them – like licorice and chocolate.
I finally got on the scale yesterday for the first time in almost a year. I’ve gained 30lbs since then. That’s how fast I can gain weight – when they say the average is like 10 lbs a year – multiply it by 3 for me. My clothes are tight and I’m uncomfortable a lot of the time and of course that last flight in which my seatbelt was so tight I almost needed an extender was a clear indication that I wasn’t doing anything in moderation and needed to start reigning things in.
Slowly over the past week I’ve been trying to just do one or two things a day that make a difference – for example this morning at coffee break instead of going and getting one of those awesome cinnamon and sugar rolls at the coffee shop, I had an apple and a cup of tea. I’m surprisingly satisfied – it’s not a solution every time but today it seemed to work.
Yesterday I did some yoga. I used to go to a private yoga class (only 3 students) that was specifically designed for large people who can’t do all those fancy things – like sit back on your heels!! I know – skinny people have no idea that we are unable to sit on our heels because we have fat on our thighs and calves. Haha.
Anyway, I adored my yoga and my chiropractor adored me going to yoga because it was really helping with my back strength. But then my yoga teacher moved away and I was so attached to her I just didn’t want to start a whole new trust and comfort circle with someone else. So I didn’t do it for a while. My yoga teacher had given me a book when she left that she had read many years before and felt it had changed her life and she hoped that I would read it too. It’s called The 8 Human Talents and it’s about using Kundalini Yoga (the type of yoga we did). I didn’t read it for 2 months but the other day I picked it up and started reading it and I’ve been inspired to try to do the yoga on my own. And it really felt so good – to just be moving again. Stretching, strengthening – it actually felt awesome.
I haven’t gotten into ‘hardcore’ cardio workouts yet – I haven’t even gone for a walk. But as I said, if I try to do it all at once I’ll last about 2 weeks before I mess up, feel guilty about that and then quit altogether.
So this week I’m going to concentrate on doing some more yoga and working with my exercise ball which I just got. I’m already finding it kinda fun to just hang out on it and watch tv, occasionally do some push ups off of it, stretch etc. Better than just lying on the couch right? (Though the cat would beg to differ, she’s mad because she hasn’t had a tummy to lie on!)