Monday, February 25, 2013
It's Monday. You know how it goes. You get on the scale and it sets off a litany of negatives, usually rooted in the weekend's choices. Ugh.
That was my Monday morning.
Now it's time to turn it around.
I have been on this journey five years. While I haven't reached my goal, I haven't given up. And I won't. I have learned a lot about myself and feel like I am on the cusp of finally getting this right. I am almost there!
Speaking of which, this is for life. I am not doing this to fit into a new pair of jeans or a swimsuit during spring break. I am doing this to establish life-long habits that will serve me well into old age.
I spent a number of years not caring. I smoked for a while. I drank to get drunk. I ate what I wanted. I rarely exercised and was perfectly happy to sit at a desk. I was depressed. I was tired. I was grumpy. I never focused on quality.
I have made progress during the last five years and will continue to make progress. I have evolved into new person. A better person. If this last piece takes several months or several years or even several decades to get right, it is worth it. The journey - even if it's long - is still worth it.
As I said above, I feel like I am on the cusp of getting this right. My diet the last 54 days has been largely vegan. And it hasn't been that difficult. I find that I don't miss dairy and meat as much as I thought I would. I am eating more vegetables, legumes, beans, fruits and whole grains. I feel better. I am not tired. I never feel hungry.
So the scale didn't say what I wanted it to say today. I wanted a loss. I got the same old same old. So be it.
It just means I have to keep doing what I'm doing with a few additions. While vegan is something I'd like to continue with - and will continue with - I need to look at added sugar, including alcohol, and determine what an acceptable level is for me. For five years my goal has been "to limit sugar and processed foods." What does that really mean? Now it's time to put some numbers behind it.
So, I am committing to a two-week challenge. I am going to limit added sugar to 30g per day and fat to 25g (these numbers are based on some quick internet research over the weekend). I am not going to worry about natural sugars or fat from whole foods. Those can be metabolized. I am simply going to track added sugar (in drinks, cereals, yogurt, chips, etc.) and fat and see if it makes a difference.
I was not happy this morning but I have acknowledged the positives, have put some perspective on the negatives and am now moving on...