A Loss Is What I've Got
Monday, February 25, 2013
WOW - what a bumpy road it has been in the past 2 weeks. The eating has been the hardest part. I simply fell out of the habit of telling myself "NO" over the past year, and it still feels uncomfortable passing delicious things up.
Exercise has also been the hardest part. Snowboarding went pretty well.... after 13 years since I've been on a board, getting back on was NOT like riding a bike. The first weekend, in Colorado, I did OK. The next weekend, in New York State, I hurt myself.
I'm still not sure what did it. Was it the spectacular fall off the ski lift? Perhaps landing on my knees once too many times? Or did I just overuse my knee? I don't know. But now, a week since, my knee's been getting worse. I've still been working out - doing the bike, rowing, and elliptical (backwards feels better than forwards) -- FINALLY getting back around my old intensity. For the first time in a long time, 30 Day Shred Level One felt too easy. I'm about to advance to Level 2. My knee hates me.
I've been watching Biggest Loser- always motivating and inspirational when I focus on my own health. But the knee is getting worse; there is pain when I straighten it out, pain when I walk on it or push off of it. My husband caught me limping at church on Sunday.
I don't want to be injured. (Who does?) I really really don't want this new injury to derail my efforts. I FINALLY lost 1 lb this week. It's not a lot, but it is something. And, I will take it. I just need to figure out more ways to burn calories without using my knee so much. I have an orthopedist appt this Friday. I'm somewhat worried I broke something. Best case, it's just tendonitis.
And eating. I have to keep eating less until my knee gets better. Like 1200 to 1300 calorie ranges.
I'm going to Machu Picchu in 2 weeks. Thankfully, we are doing the 2 day hike, not the 4 day. Even so, I should be working out to get ready. I'm not sure how to stay off my leg AND prepare for the trip. It's a catch 22. It's really not fair. But then, whenever is injury fair, in good timing, or easy to get through?
I'm just going to keep looking at that one pound loss, as something I have , something to be thankful for. Look at what I have got (ironically a loss is what I have got), and not what's holding me back.