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Monday, February 25, 2013

Maybe I should say, TRYING FOR acceptance. Not from others, but from myself.

I emotionally ate last night. I got overwhelmed thinking about what a crappy week it had been, thinking about my ex, school, work, money, my period is about to start, etc etc. So I ate a whole digiorno pizza. And Fritos. And ice cream.

So I got off track last night. Still seems to happen on a regular basis for me and I get frustrated with myself for not handling the situation better. Now, I will say this doesn't happen as often as it used to... I mean, I was 40lbs heavier not so long ago and that was because I buried my emotions in things like pizza, or chinese food, or burritos from Qdoba. So I have come a long way in that respect.

Now that I am thinking about this, I suspect that part of my urge to eat that whole pizza was because I was feeling deprived. Not giving in and eating the way I used to, which meant cr*p 7 days a week, fast food for breakfast and dinner and a frozen meal for lunch. I know it is not deprivation, I am not LOSING anything from not eating junk food- At least, not in that way. I am gaining so much if I let the crap go. I gain confidence, strength, better health, better physical appearance... I guess I need to work harder at remembering that.

On the Plus side, I find myself highly motivated today to exercise. I got the Coach Nicole Total Body Sculpt DVD and am looking forward to trying it. I also plan on getting additional cardio in at the gym later, because I consider body sculpt to be strength training, sort of. So I will get plenty of exercise. PLUS, I am cleaning today. The place isn't a complete mess, but I really need to just straighten and organize, so I will be active that way, too.

So... Acceptance. I accept I made choices that were not great- Some might say down right bad. But I can move on. Just because I had a bad day yesterday does not mean that today will be bad as well. In fact, I am sure that today will be a good day. I will clean my apartment. I will do my physics homework and get that monkey off my back. I will eat right. I will exercise. I will do laundry. Once all that is done, I will feel better, because a number of those things were what was making last night hard. So I will be ahead of my game and eliminate (some) of my emotional triggers.

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    emoticon Schooooool is sooooooo stressful. I know. I just finished my associates and just applying for university is stressful. ugh. I read that you want a baby. I know life is so different for each of us, but I do have one-- that I absolutely love and cherish, BUT... school is SOOOO much more stressful when you'd rather be spending your time with your baby and your heart is breaking. I've cried just thinking about how much I'm going to miss once I start on my bachelor's. eh. hugs sister, hugs. emoticon
    1557 days ago
    Lead us not into temptation. I get down in the evenings and while watching tv. I eat a 100 calorie microwave popcorn. It is filling and not very many calories. Try not buying pizzas. We order a medium thin cheese pizza and pick it up 7.99 and 200 calories per slice.
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