Maybe I should say, TRYING FOR acceptance. Not from others, but from myself.
I emotionally ate last night. I got overwhelmed thinking about what a crappy week it had been, thinking about my ex, school, work, money, my period is about to start, etc etc. So I ate a whole digiorno pizza. And Fritos. And ice cream.
So I got off track last night. Still seems to happen on a regular basis for me and I get frustrated with myself for not handling the situation better. Now, I will say this doesn't happen as often as it used to... I mean, I was 40lbs heavier not so long ago and that was because I buried my emotions in things like pizza, or chinese food, or burritos from Qdoba. So I have come a long way in that respect.
Now that I am thinking about this, I suspect that part of my urge to eat that whole pizza was because I was feeling deprived. Not giving in and eating the way I used to, which meant cr*p 7 days a week, fast food for breakfast and dinner and a frozen meal for lunch. I know it is not deprivation, I am not LOSING anything from not eating junk food- At least, not in that way. I am gaining so much if I let the crap go. I gain confidence, strength, better health, better physical appearance... I guess I need to work harder at remembering that.
On the Plus side, I find myself highly motivated today to exercise. I got the Coach Nicole Total Body Sculpt DVD and am looking forward to trying it. I also plan on getting additional cardio in at the gym later, because I consider body sculpt to be strength training, sort of. So I will get plenty of exercise. PLUS, I am cleaning today. The place isn't a complete mess, but I really need to just straighten and organize, so I will be active that way, too.
So... Acceptance. I accept I made choices that were not great- Some might say down right bad. But I can move on. Just because I had a bad day yesterday does not mean that today will be bad as well. In fact, I am sure that today will be a good day. I will clean my apartment. I will do my physics homework and get that monkey off my back. I will eat right. I will exercise. I will do laundry. Once all that is done, I will feel better, because a number of those things were what was making last night hard. So I will be ahead of my game and eliminate (some) of my emotional triggers.