Being ok with who I am
Monday, February 25, 2013
I have been trying my whole adult life to lose weight. Never for health, as I have never had any health problems., but because "they" say I should. "They" are the media, clothing manufactures, etc. My husband met me when I was about 220 lbs, and has never stopped loving me, or wanting me. He has at times asked me NOT to lose weight, because he likes plumpy.
So one night I was laying in bed and could not sleep (this happens WAY TOO OFTEN, ugh) and I was thinking, wtf am I trying this hard?? I have no one to impress, no one I care about anyway. And losing weight because "they" say I should does not seem to be working. I have been over 200 lbs for about 15 years now, lol.
I will still be trying to lose, but at the same time my focus is no longer to get to where others think I should be, even if that means I have to shop in the plus section.