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Being ok with who I am

Monday, February 25, 2013

I have been trying my whole adult life to lose weight. Never for health, as I have never had any health problems., but because "they" say I should. "They" are the media, clothing manufactures, etc. My husband met me when I was about 220 lbs, and has never stopped loving me, or wanting me. He has at times asked me NOT to lose weight, because he likes plumpy.

So one night I was laying in bed and could not sleep (this happens WAY TOO OFTEN, ugh) and I was thinking, wtf am I trying this hard?? I have no one to impress, no one I care about anyway. And losing weight because "they" say I should does not seem to be working. I have been over 200 lbs for about 15 years now, lol.

I will still be trying to lose, but at the same time my focus is no longer to get to where others think I should be, even if that means I have to shop in the plus section.

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MELISSAD71 2/25/2013 8:04AM

    This is your journey and you have to do it for yourself! Society gives us a skinny standard of what beauty is and it is usually unattainable. Being healthy however is not! Make changes to feel and be better. Don't be completely focused on the number on the scale but celebrate every small success you make towards your journey to health! Good luck!

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MJRVIC2000 2/25/2013 7:52AM

    The scripture teaches us that whatsoever we sow, that shall we reap. I'm glad you don't have any health problems now, but what about later on. Don't stop loving yourself, but do something about your weight before it does something to you. God Bless YOU! Vic.

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