Monday, February 25, 2013
I am trying so hard to NOT eat when I'm not hungry. Logically, it sounds like the most ridiculous thing to do. Do I go to the gas station when the tank is still full? But I do it all the time; eat, not over-fill my car's tank.
Yesterday I was home all day, and I wanted to eat all day. I was never really physically hungry. I was bored, and I didn't feel like doing the household chores that were waiting for me.
I did manage to avoid eating ...ummm... inappropriately for most of the day, but it was a constant mental battle with myself. It was exhausting.
I guess I wanted to eat to procrastinate, and to fill some empty time.
So… Why? Habit? Eating when bored is a childhood thing I remember clearly. But I know it's hurting me now, so why still do it?
How do I break out of this? Replace this habit with another? Or can it be done away with entirely? But how?
I guess when I figure this out, I can write a self-help book and become rich. And thin.