The truth is..
Monday, February 25, 2013
Sometimes I get down too, just like anyone else and this is one of those days.
Today is my favorite Uncle's birthday and he has been gone for a while now.
Yesterday I had my dad in the ER because of severe back pain. It was arthritis and also a fairly new compression fracture which I have no idea how he got.
There are days I feel so very alone and this is one of them. I know I have all of you, I have my wonderful husband who would and does do anything for me, gosh he cleaned the house for me yesterday while I was at the hospital with dad, what more could a woman want, yet I still feel alone.
I know I need to take care of me, but this isn't the day..either. All I get finished doing is for everyone else and no one but my husband does for me. Yes, this is an "all about me" day and I HATE it!
There are more days than not that I love to have silliness in my blogs, but, you guessed it, this isn't one of them. I don't feel like I have anything to be funny about this morning. I'm sad, depressed, angry and have a who the heck cares attitude this morning. I know I'll get over it, I always do, but for now I just want to wallow in my misery.
I have friends who have had great losses recently and my heart hurts for them.
I have friends who have so many more problems than I do and I want so badly to fix it for them and I can't. I know I'm being unrealistic, but I want to fix life for everyone and dam it, I can't.
So here I am, feeling sorry for myself because I don't have a life and I can't fix things for everyone else, and if you're reading this, I'm sorry, because when I get down like this, you are the one who suffers through it listening to me whine.
Love you all! HUGS!