Sunday, February 24, 2013
how I feel
tired - overwhelmed - overworked - frustrated - angry - sad - confused - alone - resentful - under appreciated - worried - isolated - restricted - weak - inadequate .... Just a partial list.
I am so TIRED of being beaten down and beaten down and beaten down some more! I can't do anything right to save my ass and the harder I try the worse it gets, however, at the same time I am being asked for assurance that I won't leave and will ALWAYS be there.
I could just CRY/SCREAM!, but there's no time for that kind of thing, at least not right now. Anyway, there is more than enough crying and screaming going on already.
Steve and I have come up with a plan for the future that we hope will make for a better quality of life for all involved, but at the moment I don't even know if I will survive to see it to completion - to say I'm burnt out would be a HUGE understatement!