Coming to terms with changes
Sunday, February 24, 2013
In the past 6 months, I've had two major abdominal surgeries that have left me with 9 scars that serve as constant reminders of both my mortality and my ability to persevere through even the most difficult situations. i don't mind the scars so much, but the surgeries have changed the shape of my body, and it's sometimes difficult to recognize and accept my new, bloated, lumpy, and much larger stomach. On the other hand, the challenges I faced this past year, have reminded me just how strong I truly am. My body is capable of so much more than I ever could have imagined.
Sometimes I feel a little bit surprised by how easily this weight is coming off. But really, I shouldn't be surprised at all. I've been laying the groundwork for this transformation for years now. I've addressed the issues that have held me back and weighed me down in the past. And I've worked hard to identify, deconstruct, and remove the obstacles that stood in my way. There's truly nothing holding me back any more. That certainly doesn't mean that losing this weight is going to be easy. I know that I'll face challenges and bumps in the road, but I also feel very confident that I can do this. In letting go of my issues and excuses, I've also found the courage to let go of the weight. It's a wonderful feeling, and I can't wait to see what the future holds.