Another day of pain/ some neglect being felt by my family
Sunday, February 24, 2013
I live with pain on a daily basis but this has been the worst winter by far since I first got lyme and my hubby is thinking of moving to a warmer climate because of it .
He said it breaks his heart to see me in so much pain and we should start looking, I know his heart is in the right place but we can't afford to move and where would we go if we could? I'd love to move to Florida but with the weather systems they have their I can't think of it being much better during hurricane season.
Sometimes I just feel like giving up but wouldn't do that to my son or hubby as these two really do love me. We were going to go to Barnes and Noble today to get his Nook (he got it for Christmas set up cause we don't have wifi) set up but since I'm the one that knows about computers and hubby doesn't he didn't want to go without me , but my son said mom I know your in a lot of pain we can go another time.
I feel bad cause we have been putting it off since Christmas cause of everything going on with my dad, my husband last night said it was good to go out with me the other day to the flower show cause he felt a little neglected because of everything with my dad. He also said that he understood that my dad had to come first but it broke my heart that he felt neglected cause he's never made me feel that way in the whole 18 1/2 yrs we've known one another.
I apologized and he said you don't have to I know your stressed out , I'm just glad I have a very understanding husband and son (nook being put on hold for set up).
I haven't seen my dad since the day he said he was putting my brothers on the proxy, I needed time for me and then the last two days have just been full of pain so didn't go.
I'll never think of the grass being greener on the other side, I know what I have in my husband and in my marriage, I feel bad for his cousin because he's living with his dad who is in his 80's who has a reverse mortgage on his home and if he dies he'll be homeless along with this sister.
I can't imagine what it feels like to think your set for life with the person you love and then have a curve ball thrown at you. He worked 28 hrs straight and his boss sent him home cause he was in fear of him falling asleep at the wheel.
I'm going to go enjoy the Oscars I HOPE BEN AFFLECKS PICTURE WINS HE'S A HOME TOWN BOY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! HE'S WICKED HOT, I JUST LOVE HIM AND HIS WIFE TOGETHER AND WHAT GORGEOUS KIDS THEY HAVE, GOOD LUCK BEN!